...into muhh heart, muhh soul, a brand new miee! :)
takemyHAND*
hold me close and say three words like you used to do just three words iloveyou-
huh?!lost?; click on your right and navigate your way through!*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Thursday, December 09, 2004
10:14 PM
Limits..know my uselessness!!
I feel so useless right now..I hate myself..I really do...I'm so angry with myself..I'm a piece of useless shit..I can't achieve anything!I feel so down..It's so ironic..I don't know whether to laugh or to cry..I finally know my limits..who say u can improve and break your limits?bullshit!all is crap!Everyone has their limits and once they reached theirs, they can't go overboard anymore..u know why?because that is your limits!I know i'm not making any sense here..but I don't care!!I try!I did try!Do u know how hard I try?U know how hard is it for me to finally know my limits?I always think I can improve and limits is nothing..u can achieve anything if you work hard..but now I know..the truth finally hit me..hard..so hard..so cruel..I finally know my own limits...I can never be good in anything...anything!Look at my studies..I wanted to be the best..who wouldn't want?but end up no matter how hard I try,I fail to do so..that's why I gave up long time ago...I already know there's no hope..so my as well have more fun than spend time studying...but I believe I still can be the best..if not at least one of the best in something..like in ID...u know how much effort..how much time..how much money I wasted on it?but still.....ya i know my skills did improve compared to last time but what's the use?I'm still consider one of the lousy players..and I'm the worst among girls...look at yee there so much better than me..we started the same time u know?how come so much differences?I really don't know why until today....today...I realize that I have already reached my limits...no matter how hard I try..my skills won't improve anymore...so why the hell do I still want to waste money and time on it..since that is the case?I felt so really useless...before that I still have some hope that one day my skills can be like the pros..but now I realize that is not the case...I have already reached my limits...that is as good as I can be...no more..I felt so depressed!I'm so angry with myself....why I'm so useless?I can't even be good in ID..so what more can I be good in?even like ID such a small thing..I can't!I'm so angry with myself...why am I so useless?why so fast reached my limit?why can others improve so much...break their limits?why not me?Why can't I??WHy??Why??There's only one answer for this...that is..I'm a useless human being...no matter how hard I try..I can't achieve anything...I'm really useless....ya..a useless piece of shit!I hate myself!!!
takeMEbytheHAND.
Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
takeMEsomewhereNEW.
::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
HANDinHAND.
#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
