...into muhh heart, muhh soul, a brand new miee! :)
takemyHAND*
hold me close and say three words like you used to do just three words iloveyou-
huh?!lost?; click on your right and navigate your way through!*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Saturday, March 12, 2005
11:57 PM
damm.!!damn!
Damm.. damm..dammm..damn! I'm back to my old ways again...I think I've sunken into bipolar depression....I didn't know that I still have such strong feelings for him...or should I said I actually known it all along..I was just ignoring it...repressing it...till it no longer can be ignored..no longer can be repressed... Idiot...!I really want to hate you...really really want to hate you..don't you know it will be so much much more easier this way?you know shit!You don't understand shit...you dunno fucking any shit....maybe you know some shit..but why did you do it if you know some shit?You really dunno shit!!Do you know that how deeply you hurt me?How much pain you cause me..?How much tears I wasted on you..again and again..and will still do...you invade my thoughts almost every single day......How my heart always hurt when I think about you?I really feel a stab of pain when I think about you..when I see you...dreams..you always appear..I can even feel the pain in my heart while sleeping....so damm sad..so damm fucking depressed...tears can even come out while I'm sleeping?Do you know??You know shit!You are a shit up person!!A piece of shit...hahahhaha..that make me worse..since I still care..still worry for you..I know I should have just let it go..but it's not easy ok?It's really not easy...It's hard...It's damm fucking hard...I even wasted my time and my money..risked scolding just to see you...but the funny thing is I think it's worth it..I don't think it's wasted..I really think it's worth it..just to get a glimpse of you...it's enough to make me happy..hahaha..I'm stupid right?real stupid man....All I want is some concern from you?as a friend?is that too much too ask?no....you would rather talk to the whole world except me..you would rather do anything to the whole world but me..is that call friends?Is that call being friends??I here trying to make the effort to be friends...since that is what you want...but no..you ignored me...you think it's easy for me to smile at you?to act normal?Is that so much to ask?All I want is a bit of concern from you..as a friend..is that so hard?I'm not asking to get back..just a bit of concern from you..a bit only..even a tiny bit is enough.. Yes..I will move on..continue with life...do my daily stuff...work..whatever..but you will always be hovering somewhere behind my mind...just waiting...waiting to invade my thoughts whenever you have the chance...haunting me..but you don't give a damm..you don't right?You don't give a damm..but I still give a damm about you...still care for you..i can't believe why am I so stupid...damm stupid..you know that day I even feel sad for you when your car level down..really feel it..and worry somemore..knowing you don't really have much money to work back on it...but I know you could just easily work back on it...Why do I give a damm anyway?You don't give a damm...damm you...!damn!
takeMEbytheHAND.
Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
takeMEsomewhereNEW.
::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
HANDinHAND.
#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
