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Saturday, July 30, 2005
3:53 PM
Froggy who likes dead frog??hahahaz
Hahaha..didn’t know someone had a name like that..today went to work..replace xian..she needs to go sch in d morning.well,it was ok,consider that I got only one hour of sleep.=.=”.was really grumpy in the morning,unwilling to wake up but then when I went to work..surprisingly was ok and I got the energy to work.i think it’s the kids..got a prep class in the morning,didn’t know any of them except one,pei ching who replace her wed class today,didn’t know how they will react to me at first lol..but then overall was quite ok.manage to get close in a way to them..got one girl quite cute also..so small and cute..hahahz..wen sin I think the name..so cute..well..this prep class was much better than wed and fri one..kids are quite good except only got one boy a bit naughty,in fluencing another one.later was quite busy..when there’s like 3 class starting..with ppl coming in..and only knew that they,the a bit older kids..guess standard 3-4 or maybe even std 5 call xian my name..>.<..hahhaa..and froggy???!!who likes dead frog??!!lol..in the end thye know xian is xian..me is me..whahaha..got two especially like to tease ppl..i guess they are the one starting the froggy thingy..=p..welloh..and xian turn up early..was surprise..12.15..=.=”..her stuff finish early..oh well..so both of us are there..but of course I’m still working cuz my working hours not yet finish >.<..get tease by those boys....got fool by one somemore to write the wrong name..=.=”..kena laugh as usual..but of course nobody gets away with teasing me so easily..wahahahha..they got new nicks..tortoise(looks like big fat tortoise..) and lucas..gonna call them that from now on..=/..and lucas kena tease by me until got one point nothing to say..tsk..tsk..but after that started back again..and tortoise also..can’t win my mouth..so in the end can only call me stick….leaving already still wanna call names..*sigh*..and anyway I really look like a stick!!today 2 more ppl say I’m skinnier!!one is Christina..and one is xian..by the rate I’m going..i’m going to be skinnier than xian soon..bout there already..really teruk..not only them..my mom also say..left bones only..not to mention ppl calling me stick..and I realize also I’m losing weight!!omg..of course la..not enough sleep everyday..i dun want to look like a skeleton!!well..wahahah..xian is gonna join me soon…hehehe=p..wait till the workload becomes heavy..now starting only…=.=”…3000 words esaay?>.<..hehehe..and wait till ur work start….well then we have both skeletons in that centre..=.=”..not a good thing though..ppl might think our boss torture us..oh well..overall the day was ok..and I was kinda happy in a way..guess small kids can really make u happy..or even a slightly older kids also..oh..and today..spent most of the time with the maid,rubiah..and she’s funny lah..i mean did something funny…went down to buy stuff but tell boss go down and wipe door..hehehehe..but she really got wipe door also..but the way she's scared of boss funny..she gave me some sweets she bought also..thanks..but the paper she bought not suitable for writing long letters home dei=.=”..thought she gonna buy fullscap..sekali buy those cute cute kitty cat one..=.=..and she manage to get her powder too..hahaha....well..oh and..umm..christina seems to be pregnant..hmm..well got to talk to her bout her holiday I n the port dickson chalet..got petting zoo there also..and ostrich farm!!she say maybe going back there nxt time..but when the kids grow older like teenager d..then have to change place d..if not surely bored..say maybe planning to go club med..wheeeeeeeeee..wah..o.O..so nice..but expensive..800 per person!!!omg!she say should start saving from now d..hahahaz.. Neway was kinda happy today although not enough sleep..i realize I love my job a lot!!job satisfaction is high..heh=p..although I always say wanna quit but I dun think I ever will do it..where can u find these kind of job?at least u won’t be stuck in an office whole day with just work and four wall..at least there’s some life around..and it honed my interpersonal skills =p..wanna use hard words pula..simple way of putting it..is sharpens my communication skills..good for public speaking in future..=).. Oh well..better get back to work..as in my assignments!!argghh!!oh.. and ganbatte to froggy too!!=p..good to hear everything’s ok wand well in ur new environment..at least the ppl are nice!!let us work our way towards becoming a skeleton!!!hahahhaz..=p.. p.s.gosh my dark circles really show out and I look at the mirror again..i really lose weight!!a lot of ppl say d..=.=”..looking more and more like a aneroxia nervosa patient..!
feeling so tired now..came back from work and yet still have to sweep and mop the entire house!!!=.="...my sleep..i need my sleeeeee..eepp!!
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Thursday, July 28, 2005
8:37 PM
another tiring day..miss old times..
slept at around 4 again last night..and it's not gb..it's because of my assignments!!*sigh*...august is worst!!at least finish..and get to finish winnee's random sampling also..went to print out the questions...but then..=.="..i'll tell later..her instruction on the paper not clear dei!=.="..and because that idiot lembu lembik make us come at 10 to pass up our assignments..all other lecturers are 5pm..she..10 am??wtf?see lah..thought 2 hours nothing to do..class starts at 12(since dr.goh dun want tutorials but instead have the 3 hour class)..but turn out a lot of ppl not clear bout the the assignment also..so end up sitting done discussing..and doing...more like counting=.="..god so many numbers..easy to miscount..took us until 12 to finish..=.=!!everyone did a different thing..anyway we sat down with jiun and syamim and do..had some laugh too..(nad say now jiun like 2 come n sit with us in class d...cause we are funny n interesting..heh=p..and they are not by the book type=nerds!-we have a lot in this program..by the books sial,cannot tahan!!hahha..make me think bout mee fen,ah bin,azral all..last time also wat they all say me and nad is interesting..hahaha..we always together and surely can laugh one with us..hahaha..with our interesting stories..and me and nad is a weird combination,many ppl will not understand y we get together..=)....but still not as fun as last time..last time can joke bout let just say..18Sx stuff..=p..and biadawak surely got lots of his stories one..now can't d loh..all like serious kind in a way..tak kena lah..although jiun all not nerds also..*sigh*..miss old times..miss the ppl in adp..*sob*..so many fun characters and stuff..now?ppl here are all different..yalah..nice ppl but..haih...not as fun..)..anywayjiun looks terrible..she look so damn pale..and they still got their biopscyh assignment(OMG!look at them..see lah biospsych is the worse of all..non-stop assignment..one after another..and cannot finish one..)..all were busy doing biopsych..they got a research project and presentation tommorrow and friday =.="..jiun really look pale..dunno how long haven't she been sleepingwell..somemore she did essay till quite late also..and somemore got boyfriend to layan somemore and her japanese class??hahahha...where got time to read my mangas?she say next sem wanna take one subject only..wahahah..a lot of the students also say not going to take 4 anymore..wahahahha..that philosopher take 3 also cannot cope d(ex-adp-ian)..it's the right choice we took 2..but dunno how we gonna manage nxt time with 3??!this honours program they really want the standard sial...extra more work..it's like 10 times the work of adp..sigh..see adp students so relax..miss old times again..see la me 2 subjects only so many late nights already...they all 4 subjects all like dead fish like that already...look at their teruk punya faces..jiun especially.kesian only..
haih..dunno how am i going to go on?long for my holidays....but then again..*sigh*..working is tiring..shouldn't have work 3 days...i dunno how am i gonna cope next sem?somemore short sem surely timtable very full and pack..*sigh*..next week got assignment due again..oh hell man!!and the following week 2 assignments due at the same time..winnee observation and lab report..haih..and next week...*sigh*..no need to mention..every week is packed with assignments due...no time...no rest...i need a break!!*sigh*.........where am i goingto find time to study for finals??my cgpa...=.="..i wanna get higher...must dei..if not next time very hard to pull it up d..
y don't someone just take a knife and kill me?gun will do also...>.<..!!
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
7:53 PM
This is kiiling me..IT's HELL!
this is hell..assignments..assignments..assignments.. I have been doing assignments non-stop..i have never even got the chance to stop and rest...OMG!i have assignments due every week!!EVERY WEEK!and got two weeks which i have two assignments due at the same time!!TWO TIMES!!OMG!every fucking week..!this is hell itell u!!HELL!and not only that..like i haven't much to cope already...i still have to help ppl do something....umm..just let me say this causes me to have a phobia on writing...and i think fax machines and airplanes are stupids!(someone may know what i'm talking bout)...especially AIRPLANES!!=.="..oh well...dmn stress out now..and tired!!still have to work...!!!dang...this is killing me..first time in my life i have been working non-stop..as in not even have time to relax..breath..and i haven't been watching my tv series drama since dunno how many months ago already..have to sacrifice it for the time to do my assignments..*sigh*...and gb..no gb...i'm going mad...but at least just now manage to play a bit of gb..=)..at least happier already..bleh..=p
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Friday, July 22, 2005
1:31 AM
lembu lembik leaving..!!
yeeah....lembu lembik leaving......she told us today...she's going back to work with the children stuff...cause there's been parents calling up saying..plz can u come and look at my kid..whatlah..plz..my kid is killing myself..bla..bla..and she memang suit her old job la..she likes to talk and have "interactio"..her "interaction in class" is too much d..end up she didn't teach anything...haih..she memang don't suit to be a lecturer....and she also like working with children..so suit her also..and she doesn't like paper work.......wheeee..at least she won't be teaching us abnormal next time...phew!lucky..if not surely fucked up..somemore we haven't taken that subject in adp.....hmm..wonder who will teach??hope is ms.w...or maybe new lecturer?haih..should have taken earlier with "green mile" while in adp..they say he's funny and all..and good also...ms.w take over after he left..but still should have taken earlier...
oh..lembu lemnik is leaving before the finals..so she won't be setting the final questions...i think...dr.goh is taking over the class...probably he's setting it?but he seems so busy..always in and out..and 24/7 not in the office..will be somewhere doing something..u know him la..so wanted by people everywhere...giving seminars..(just saw that day on newspaper-btw,his name always appear in newspaper..he's giving a talk in tun ismail..dunno wat wisma...it wrote.."a leading psychologist.....bla..bla"..i feel like laughing already..so funny..)neway..he's good la..and he just came back from giving corporatetraining in east malaysia or something like that..was that company prudential?...or hitachi..?eh..no la..hitachi is the one working with those student from different country one..long story..lazy to tell also..anyway..he's good la..really admire him..and he got the charisma there..when he talk..you just can't help it..must look at listen at him..somehow u r drawn to..but he's so busy..dunno got time to set questions or not?if in the office also..surely meeting or training..where got time?li also say he seems so busy..met her today while waiting for the bus..so we talk all the way back..at least got companion during the journey home..she gets down a station after me..well at least there's someone to talk to during hte bus and lrt ride home..if not surely bored..most of the time i'm sleeping neway..but once in a while it's good to have someone accompany u during ur journey home..at least you won't start thinking nonsense stuff-him..*sigh*.. btw..yes..i saw the look alike today..look from behind.. really reminds me of him..*sigh*..
overall was a ok day...class canceled..ms.w got family emergency..so dr.goh bring forward the class..so we got to go home earlier...yay!but next week..lecturers are until 6...*sigh*..tiring..and today also tired and sleepy..=.="..play gb until 5 am again..can't believe this..
oh..and today supposingly plan to go out with rosh..but nad and me also like tired(nad went back to singapore for one day,grandma sick) and not confirm also..maybe rosh also went back to melaka..so in the end never do anything..wahh..we very bad sial..only see roach one time..and only few hours also..and he's leaving already..surely merajuk at us..but we have our assignments nad exams!!he just have to come back at the wrong time!!haih..surely merajuk d la..if we are on holiday surely lah no prob..everyday can go out also...but now got school..i work..nad got hans prob-no maid..seelah..everytime we try to plan also can't..cause our calender is like realyl packed with darn assignments!!just pass up one today..gosh and i have my 1500 word essay due next week..and i haven't do any research yet!!fuck!!dei no da...lab report dueing..poster review haven't do...dei no da!!OMG!!and then ms.w assignment another one dei no da dueing again soon....not to mention still got one more dunno how many words essay coming..and FINALS!!nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo~~~!!!>.<""have to stop gb for a while SOON!!by the rate i'm going..if i still play gb like that....i'll die..*sigh*..don't feel like working..wait till my holidays only work can?*sigh*...tiring...have to go work again 2morow..every alternate day..feeling sick and tired..not to mention got monkeys 2morow..one really naughty one..damn!i dreaded going to work...so hard to wake up and go to work..no motivation at all..maybe there is a little bit..mom says look at the dollar sign..$$$$...$.$!!=.=""!
*added*p.s.yay!!my gb percentage went up to 53% already!!after so hard..so many wins it took..finally..yesterday itself i already manage to win back what i've lost..and today i keep winning!!yay!!lost once i think..but overall good!!good team!!and good work!aduka 4 vs 4 game!!love it!love aduka only game..=p...and my average hit went back to 202.086..still love my aduka..especially in meta mine..love using ss..=)
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
10:44 PM
depressed..
seelah..i'm dunno why i'm fucking depressed right now....dammit....i'm really a sad case..seelah...he change no?not yet confirm lah..but still..seelah..he won't wanna tell me one..rather msg yeez than me...it's like telling her equals to telling me already..and i was fine before yesterday and know for some really strange reason..i feel uneasy..worry...depresed..wtf is wrong with me???this is sad man!!i'm a hopeless sad case!!i don't have mood to do anything...i even lose interest in gb..OMG!!i can lose my acc..it's MY ACCOUNT dunno how many times in a row without even caring...and still play but without concentrating...feeling really uneasy..more like depressed??can't get it off my mind...fuk!!i need to go out.....to watch a movie..or something..i can't stop flooding......help...it's really a torture...pain....help..........this is fucking hell depressing!!!!!!!
I really want to get you out of my mind..get rid of you....i keep telling myself i really have to stop being this way...i can't believe that i can fall for u so deep...fuck u!damn!damn!i wanna let go...but i keep going back to the same spot over and over again...no matter how many times..how hard i tried...i don't want to care anymore...i really don't..but i do...hahaha..i'm going mad..and do you know the worst part..hahah..i saw someone that look like you in my college...and guess what??hahahha...same program...fucking hell...reminds me of you everytime i sees him..(but of course u look better than him n ur hair style is nicer..wtf am i saying?)and that isn't the worst part..this look-alike got a gf...and they are always together..hahaha..makes me reminds me of you and me if we were still together..now i can't even have my peace anymore in school...or in the bus(that couple always take the bus)....is this to torture me?oh..and the worst part is yet to come..this look-alike speaks fluent english,a big difference from you but this reminds me more of you..i keep thinking really it's partially my fault........regret...really regret...my mistake...makes me think back of my mistakes...again and again..if i didn't..probably it won't lower you fucking hell low self esteem..well...this is really torture..y do someone like u have to appear and reminds me of you?is he sent to torture me?
hahaha...i dunno what to do anymore..i misess you badly...hahahha...i can't stop..do u know?u dunno...you won't know...i dunno..dunno..ahahhaha...going mad...hahahah..probably will be fine again 2morow...yea..i always do..even if not..i life still have to go on..hope there's some news bout you soon..i doubt that..oh yea 2morow i get to see ur look alike again..is this just great or what?hahaha..make me misses u even more..damn!!.i'm an idiot..a real idiot!!stupid idiot me..i know but i can't do anything to change it..can't control..idiot!
the heavy rain outside now..
is like my mood..
the never ending..
flow of water..
flowing endlessly..
but it will still stop..
if not what will happen?
flood everyone?
and scare them away..
people run away trying to avoid heavy rain anyway..
or flood everywhere?
and destroy every single thing..in a big flood..?
that can't happen..can it?
so it will stop...
no matter how heavy..
but it will not end..
it will still rain again..
again and again..
and where will you be?
hahahhaha.........
you are sleeping, perhaps?
so you never knew it rain all along..
when you wake up..
all you see is the sunny weather..
so you never know..
you will never know..
how much is hidden behind that sunny weather..
as all you can see is..
the dry ground..
and a sun hanging above shining brightly..
looking at the rain..
drops by drops..
of water..
each containing a sadness..
a pain..
that only the rain itself knows..
will i ever understand the rain?
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Monday, July 18, 2005
8:57 PM
harry potter and the half blood prince
read it already..knowing me..a big fan..of course i bought it on the day it releases...but *sigh*..how could she kill another character off??omg..........i'm not going to mention who is it..it will be a spoiler for those who haven't read yet..it's sad...SAD!!why???isn't sirius enough??...*sigh*....but more is know bout lord voldermort in this book..his past and all....and that idiotic snape!!betrayer!!scum!!...................how could he!!oh well.................always thought he change..but no!!he's on the bad side!!!!!!!!!spy!!!!!!causing the death of.....oops..already revealing too much..no no..i'll just let u all read it first..but the starting part was slow to pick up though...and oh..harry got himself a girl..hhahaha...only one more book left...*sigh*..how long will it be..?and i hope no more sad endings these time...like 2 books with sad endings are not enough!!but well overall it was quite ok.....
oh..i went to 2 places on sat..tiring.>.<..first klcc..(to get my harry potter+RM20 book voucher)..got nad her gift..(kinda..may buy her other stuff also)..and watched ID d..they cut a lot..=.="..not really nice already..the plot so fast somemore...spoil the whole thing..but it was still ok i guess..then later we ate sushi...!!my nice eel..mmmm..!!delicious!! then later..go ts..after watching d..feel like going..gotta get pei yie's present too...bought her something..oh..he was there by the way...he has taken to avoid me for some strange reason...haih..i thought we are back in talking terms?i tried to sound cheerful and talk but..everytime i'm there he'll move away..it's very obvious dei!=.="..when yeez there..he'll just normal..can even see hp all..seelah..when i come..he moves away..=.="...and then wanna walk over occasionally..hey dude!!what's the matter now!!i'm sick of this already...u stil lot something or what!!i'm so sick and tired i didn't even bother to look at him or even try to peek at him..then later wanna regret..cause he left already..=.=""i think i just wanna action only..well..at least i got a few flimpse of him..althought not enough..=.=??..but..better than nothin??=.=?don't care..i'm trying really hard not to think bout him these days..i think i actually suceed..with my work..college..exams..and all..and rosh..(got a rosh problem..merajuk cause we don't have time for him..but ok already now..)...and oh ya..my so called "woman" problem too..hmm...oh well.. at least i don't think so much bout him...well..not so sure though when my holidays come..=.="..have to make myself occupied with work,work and work!or maybe i just have fallen out..?*sigh*..i don't think so..still misses him...oh and this reminds me about social psych..they said males fall in love faster but fall out of love slower...hahahaz...that day we had a interesting presentation on interpersonal attraction..although learn before already..but the presentation they did really well..got lots of visual..and lots of traditions i never heard before..make me more of a feminist!!do u know the hindus in india last time perform this ritual called suttee!!a cruel tradition!!discrimination against females!!well..since when females have rights in the olden days in most of the cultures??most of them treat females like a property...olden time society emphasize men..*sigh*..sad..sad..but oh well nowadays females is starting to have equal status but still..they are being discriminate and prejudice in many ways!!and those egoistic males who have is this stereotypes..thinking females should be this and that...(my dad for one)..blah!!don't even want me to be a clinical psychologists in future cause it's not good for a female..bla bla bla...hahaha...like i'm ever going to listen...maybe that's y i turn out to be a feminist!!i know i'm not someone great..or don't think i can ever do something great..but still one day..i wish that i can somehow do something bout the prejudice and discrimination against females..!!uh oh..i'm infesting this blog with my feminist views again..it should be the public blog..not this one..=.="..sorry..heh..=p ok that's all for now..gotta go..have more stuff to talk bout but then i have stuff to do..so let's save it 4 nxt time..byeeeeeee.!oh..and i cut my hair..well it looks..=.=??
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
12:02 AM
童话
忘了有多久
再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久
我开始慌了
是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
辛福和快乐是结局
你哭着对我说
童话里都是骗人的
我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂
从你说爱我以后
我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
辛福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
辛福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里
辛福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局
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Friday, July 15, 2005
9:38 PM
小孩
唉...
小孩啊..
看上去多么天真可爱..
好像一群小天使..
我说啊..其实是小恶魔..
拥有天使般的脸..
天真的笑容..
和...
小恶魔的格性!!
东跑西跑就算了..
一个在东蹦蹦跳跳..
一个在南跑来跑去..
一个在西把书都丢在地上..
一个在北把玩具都乱丢..
把我都搞的团团转..
因不够睡而又累的我..
被他们都搞的..像..死鱼!!
好好讲有不听..
骂又不是..
打又不可以..
最后只讲了一句...."nabei!"
hahahha.....
=.=....kids can make u happy yes...but they can make u dead tired too..sometimes u just feel like stranggling them..i'm definitely not going to have my career revolving around kids in future!!!no more kids..those little devils..=.="..now i know how great mothers are...
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
8:23 PM
反感
突然..
一刹那...
有一股厌烦的感觉..
你别得寸进尺..
我已拒绝了..
上一次已协助你了..
够了吧!
作业理所当然的..
要自己完成的..
好累..
刚考完考试..
一大堆功课在一旁
耐心的等待着我..
我那有时间..
剩余下来协助你啊?
自己来吧..
好累...
别再缠绕我不放
自己用心的..
把一个一字..
刻在你那张白纸上..
那是你的份内事..
我没那个心情来..
帮你把那张纸都填满..
自己填满它吧..
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
11:59 PM
War of the Worlds
today went to watch the show with yen and yie at 1u already..the new gsc cinema in the new wing there..quite big aand not bad..at first yen come and fetch me at bahagia lrt station then later go "ta pau" our food...and went round and round to find her reload card....take the chance to go "driving" also..drive around..her reload card damn hard to find...all sold out..so long never see her already...so talk talk loh..oh...ppl pretty already horr..hair and all..change a lot..hahaha...and then later ppl's darling call her when i'm inside the car..hahaha..the last part there funny...guess what i see??or should i say heard??hahha..kissing sound...muak muak on the phone..hahaha..ppl malu also..so soft somemore..hahahaz..of course won't let the chance off so easily without teasing..wahahahaha...later on also..pei yie also know..wahahaha...then we went to fetch pei yie from school..then went back my house to eat and bath..dei..we are damn slow leh..very "mou"..and yen there the "senang" of us all..since she finish her food fast and then no need to bath so keep rushing us all..me and pei yie there rushing..dei...hahhaha..in the end we manage to get out of the house in time???=.="i guess so....but we manage to reach there in time..go and collect tickets..or buy tickets..but really wanna watch amidityville one..yen lah ..watch d..then wanna watch ID..yie there watch already..batman also yie watch already..leceh leh wanna find one movie also..but magdascar like nice only..they say funny..but in the end ppl have to sacrifice to watch war of the world with her darling instead watch with us..wahahahha...i think my eyes got problem...or am i just plain blur??=.=??i'm always that blur and clumsy..dei..did something embarassing today again..umm..first i went in to the guys toilet..dei..i didn't see properly..and yen went in already then yie standing outside there..so i just walk straight in like an idiot..then when i went in..i see eh?how come got the standing bowl kind of thing..then i realize wrong already..faster walk out..sekali got a guy come in...so embarassing..>.<"..then i faster walk to yie's there and ask her where the gals' toilet..and told her what happen..so she show me..and went in also..embarassing dei!!then later we went in..we bought stuff in..i only bought chicken nuggets..so went in..then sekali yen forgot to bring her specs wanna sit more in front (since nobody)..so we move..and once again my clumsiness...it was dark..my foot kinda slipped and then all my nuggets drop on the floor..omg!!i just manage to take 2 bites out of it..there's 6 all together..haven't even finish one..!!then dahlah..when to sit down..then sekali think back like wasted only..so went back to find my nuggets..yen help me..cause it's really too dark for me to see..so i feel like idiot like that walking up and down searching for my nuggets on the floor..=.="..manage to find it in the end with yen's help..thanx for helping>.<...took the trouble to go out with me and find the nuggets..so i wipe the nuggets and eat it..this is not the first time something liek that happen..yeez must be laughing right now if she read this--->something similar happen too when i was in yeez car one time..that was mcd..and it was also nuggets!!drop all of them on the floor also..in the end wipe and eat it all up also..dei..i don't enjoy eating dirty nuggets..=.=..but somehow why every time it must be nugget that drop??am i fated to eat dirty nuggets??hahhaa..no more appettite once i think ppl's feet step on the floor before,where my nuggets laid..but in the end still finish it up..it's money dei..!but it's still crispy though..the movie was quite nice actually..but got some part fake..unlogic...but the effect all is nice..especially the visual effect..imagine how much must be spent on that..but overall quite a nice show..it's worth it..6 bucks..heh=p...later we went home and took lots of pics...yen brought the camera..actually wanna take sticker photo one in 1u but no time so never did..and anyway expensive also..so went back my house and take pics..i look like shit..y got so many pimples one dei?before that still ok..must be the stress of this stupid course lah!!dei..dark circles somemore..yen just send the pic over..so yie went home...her mom came already..then yen hang a while loh..see pics and all..then later went to get her reload card in 7eleven..(finally got it!) and went to see where i worked..and the later =p..ask her to fetch me go maybank..donkey her..wanna honk me somemore when i'm taking money..i did something stupid again...umm..first time using atm..=.="..all together my card went in and out 5 times...only manage to withdraw money..and i was cursing at the machine..ppl walk past look at me somemore..=.="..and in the end i press the wrong button and withdraw RM200..which i only want to withdraw RM50..dei!!cannot put back in already...damn..i'm really blur sial..yen laugh like hell of course...kena laugh like hell...so funny dei..=.=""...hahahhaz..just realize today laugh a lot the whole day..especially taking pics the time...>.<"..how come i look so stupid in pic??yen say it's cute..or should i say funny?i look funny dei..and like a mouse only..rodent sial..lol..but laugh a lot lah..haven't been doing that since rosh olden days already..had fun today...at least i relieve my stress in a way..hahhaa..seelah now here rushing for my assignment..hahhaa..it's worth it anyway...hahaha..somemore exams on thursday..=.=""..2morow have to attend seminar and working..only can study evening or at night..surely not sleeping again..damn lah!!this is stress!!i don't feel like working.......but that day promise her already that i'm coming..and then last week wednesday i nvr work also..like very bad if i didn't work 2morow..dei!!!!wil be so tired..dei no da!!but definitely finals i'm not going to work!!don't feel like working anymore also...=.=""...but for the sake of money...$$$..if not i have no income..*sigh*..today heard yen's story..haih..the girl really fight for it sial..she said i should also take the iniative and fight for what i want..i really should i think back..but haven't i done enough to hint him in a way that i still have feelings towards him?he also lah....takkan wanna tell face to face?haih..y didn't i do that in the first place??should have done it lah..at least i know the answer..now..it's a bit too long already..but maybe it won't work oout after all...if he can't get over his fear...his low self esteem..dammit!then no matter how...it still wouldn't work out..i really don't mind..then wtf he mind?his fuking self esteem lah..too low already..low to the max that kind..dunno lah..after listening d..i feel like doing it sial..am i gonna do something stupid and embarassing??i just wanna know the answer..is there anymore hope..and so i can try to let it go....so tired of all this already....haih...i really wanna talk things over...we haven't actually really manage to talk things over..but i don't think i ever have the chance...so long already..why didn't i did in earlier??wouldn't be able to either..i was really emotional that time..that's y lah go drinking all..no more drinking for me..maybe not?heheh..=p..now,i'm more calm...hahaha..am i?at least i can control my emotions..haih..not going to see him for a while already since not going ts for a long time till my stuff over..kinda miss d..haih..dunno lah..don't care..the most importing thing now is my exams!!!dei!!my face gonna look more like shit already!!more pimples coming out!!not enough sleep and no sleep 2morow!!dei no da!! p.s.yie bought me a small snoopy badge...thanx..
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
7:08 PM
is this hell yet?stresszz.zzz...
omg..this is hell..lots of work and exams...and more and more ppl cannot stand it already,especially the new students..all take 4 subjects...got a lot transfer to adp instead..see lah.adp life is so flexible and nice..y is they making the course so hard??and so many activities and work........................i miss adp..=/..got ppl quit also..but mostly transferred to adp next intake...=(....getting lesser and lesser people..and walau i see them really stress sial..finish one assignment after another..jiun look like she haven't been sleeping for days..and she say feel like transferring to adp too...yes..all the ppl look teruk kind..except the nerds of course dei!..and they really can't finishthe assignment for biospsych..still apss up like that..got a lot of ppl haven't finsih also pass u d..and i see biopsych is the worst one!!got lots of work and u knwo lah that snail teach..very teruk one..all the ppl don't understand..taht's y we drop it last sem in adp..rather than failing it..now mana tau have to take it again??=.="scary thought...escpecially the cognitive part...bio part also..who the hell wanan know what amydala does..and what hipotalamus lah..blabla..bla..fuk it lah..and i can't beleive this girl in class.. heard her talking to another fren..walau..talk about brain all..she even know what does what lah..she study the whole book sial...omg..nerd sial!!i can't believe this!!see lah..because of these ppl lah..we become more pressured!!see them all so good..damn pressure...
haih...and oh ya..our program got lots of bitches..fuck them up lah..got this one even look at me up and down just because i look like a nerd or look like a small girl or whatever lah.....so obvious somemore..give me that kind of look not enough..want to look at me up and down soemore..and she thinks she very pretty..fuck u lah..another one also...getting lots of these ppl lately..and that look so arrogant and bitchy..feel like slapping them..so what if i dun dress like all?fuck off and leave me alone..i can if i want..may even look better than u all....if i really do makeup and all and wear that kind of clothing..=.="..but it's just not me..and i hate wearing like that...so just leave me alone..bitches!!hahah..i got nad.....more and more ppl want to follow nad's style..sial..more nad follower..wahahah..lasttime adp got one..not got 2..one ask about how she do her eyeliner(she got a special trademark kind of style)..and other one ask about her hair colour and where sje go do her hair..bla bla bla..haih...waste of time..more copycats..dun understand these ppl..wasting their time coying ppl and i rather spend my time on gb than on these stuff....haih..no time for gb lately..and have to go out with rosh..someore..he merajuk dcause we neve go out with him and cancel all(we really can't lah..we not on holidayn tons of work!!)..but he don't understand and said iff he knew he wouldn't come back,since we all treat him like that..wtf??see lah..stress sial..another stress...and then have to slot time to go for luch with yen and yie also..dei...yen holiday last week already..keep phostphoning...dei......so many stuff to do..and so little time..dei!!pei yie bday coming..shit!!no time to go out and buy also......omg!!omg!!!and then nad's one comign also..!!dei.!!and my harry potter book coming out nxt week also!!OMG!!where got time to go out???!!!stress...............working 2morow also..when am i gonna study for exams like that...and winne assignment due all...???=.="..stress............stress!!
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
11:12 PM
you...
i dunno...i went today..kinda last day..since gonna really busy soon..not going nemore probably till holiday..i really wanna see you..and you appear at the last minute....i was really tired,never gotten much sleep last night..been really tired whole day,keep yawning...i really dunno anymore what to do...u tell me lah...the sight of you....probably was too tired already...i dunno..whats wrong with me?i'm so damn tired with all this already....after so long...my feelings for u never change...i'm living in torture all this while,do u know?each time i see you...the more i wanna see you..the more i gonna think about u...the uncontrollable tears...the emotions...your screensaver..and your messages..your miscalls...all i don't wanna delete..i know my life would probably be better off without all these but i just couldn't bring myself to do it..it's the only stuff u left me..and your ID card...i should probably gave it back to u..but each time i just couldn't bring myself to do it,cause i know that's the only thing i'm gonna have from u..i wonder at times really do u still keep my keychain?the last time i saw it,it was hanging from ur wallet...but now..i dunno..i wanna let go of u..i'm damn tired of this game...a never ending guessing game..the signs u gave me..the signs i gave u back..still have feelings for each other??isn't it a stupid game?i'm so sick and tired...really sick and tired..wanna let u go..but i really can't..i didn't believe that a human can be of such stupidity...until now..i didn't know i'm capable of loving one so much..i thought i was a selfish person,who only love myself the most?i use to laugh at those person such as me..for holding on..and told myself that i would never do such a thing..such as let myself fall 4 sumone....all i need is my studies..my family..my friends..and now who is the joke?hahhaha..see the sarcasm behind it?hahaha..how could i fall for someone so deep?i don't understand..i would never let that happen..but it still happened..fuck!
really dunno what else to do anymore..so tired..probably i'm just tired and stress out with college..arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....really regret...wish i could turn back time..i shouldn't have said and done those things to make u feel incompetent...i really didn't mean to...i don't even know that it will make u feel like that..it wasn't on purpose...i keep thinking it's really my fault..if i didn't say those stuff..probably it won't turn out this way?arghhhhhhh.............regret............till now the many scenes still keep replaying and replaying in my mind..wish i could turn back time and change it.....regret...*sigh*..i can't turn back time...so i guess i just have to live my life with another regret...that's why i don't wanna have anymore regrets..trying to live my life with lesser regrets...so embarassed when i purposely went up to u to say goodbye..it was weird..u were shooting at the far side or the place..we had to walk over to your side just to say goodbye..it was weird..probably he knows also i did that on purpose...but nvm....at least i have lesser regrets...
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Tuesday, July 05, 2005
5:22 PM
oh my god...what happen to u??
omg!wasshocked today..met rosh for the first time since he came back..........and guess what??he's been lying to us!!and shaz also!!somemore shaz purposely call me to tell me rosh look really unpresentable..fat..ugly..bald..and didn't shave...really teruk that kind..but mana tau today only know he's been lying to us!!idiot!!!!he change so much!!he lost weight!!he lost so smuch weight..and now even got sideburns..walau..hair also stylish gel..omg..wear sunglasses..and got cool gaya..really change man...look cool..he look so much better than last time..and he wasn't the rosh we knew last time!!!!wanna action cool somemore..feel like slapping him and say oi rosh stop actioning lah..hahaha..and all his R2..anger..bitchiness all GONE!!and so gentleman..OMG!!wtf happen to him..at first we thought it's his brother when he appear..thinner and so cool like that..OMG!!it's him......nad also feel like shaking rosh and say oi where's the old rosh??but seriously he look much much better..good looking..walau..if stoneface see him surely regret sial..now i know why glowing gal wanna talk to u roach....hahhaha..but after a while in the car..we try to get the "old rosh" back..well..it did came back a little bit..hahaha..started already..if go jungle maybe all the "old rosh" will come back huh?but i can't believe it he lie to us all these months!IDIOT!!say gain weigh and all lah..the bed wanna broke lah..accidentaly cut his hair bald lah...cold la,never shave...mana tau all is LIE!!and we always wanna fight over it..always ask him to lose weight and shave mana tau all is for nothing!!haih..get angry and fight fight over nothing all these months?!fucker lah him...say it's for entertainment..idiot man..hahhaz..seriously was really shocked today...didn't get to see shaz though..nad have o go home already..cause hans was with us..fetch hans from sch and he follow us....shaz came late..haih..me and nad left already..next time la..thursday?haih...but really not much time..me and nad just saw our calender yesterday..it's really packed....damn man!!mid terms next week..got 2 seminar write up this week and next week..and ms.w assignment due next week..lembu lembik assignment due next next week..omfg!!where got time to go out?don't even have time to study?!?!!and i have to work somemore..this sunday also..and i have my english test coming up next next week..damn man!!next month lagi worse got lots more assignment dueing..dei!!and the idiot lembu lembik exam she never give any tips or so whatever...just say anything can come out from topic 1-7???!!!!!!!!!!!essay also!!damn man..one topic a lot u know..and got lots of sub topic..and then under sub topic got so many smal small breakdowns.....OMG!!how to study???essay she can just come out anything!!HOW CAN SHE DO THIS TO US??HOW TO STUDY LIKE THAT?SHE CAN JUST PICK ANYTHING....WE HAVE TO STUDY ALL AND ALL IN DETAILS I NCASE COME OUT CAUSE WE DON'T KNOW WHAT WILL BE COMING OUT!!!!!hell!!!!!this is hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!soemmore have to teman donkey yeez go 2molo..dun feel like going really....haih...i have lots of stuff to do leh...DAMN LAH..but still have to go...make sure it's the last time..ppl under depression mah..or under stress..or whatever lah....haihya..make it the last time.. i can't afford to go anymore...have to sacrifice my work..=.=..not going work 2molo..anyway have to go seminar in the afternoon also....>.<"...........................cannot go out with yen already...cancel..work and all..and look at now..don't even have time for study...and rosh just have to come back at this moment!!!!*sigh*...tired.........................i'm so tired of everything.................working and studying is not a good choice..=.="........but for the sake of $$$.......$.$...haih...no income coming in anymore..dad not giving allowance for 3 months again..1 month is for renewal of my driving liscense fees..another 2 months is for phone bill..=.="..phone bill went up to 200 bucks..because of internet..now no need to worry already..got my streamynx already..can online 24 hrs also nvm..yay!!anyway...i'm not hoping to get allowance from him anymore also..since when he gave me?so long he never gave me any money already..only mom gave me cause kesian me..cis..getting used to living without my allowance d also..anyway now got working money already mah..the feeling of not having to worry about money is so great...no need to think bout it every single time..cause i know there will be my working money every month..but tiring lah..working n studying....=.="..........
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Sunday, July 03, 2005
9:30 PM
lost...
what am i doing?wish time would stop..i don't want to grow up..i wanna turn back time and stuck there..never moving..staying in the same spot..repeating it over and over again..i realize..i'm not ready for any of it..working life..growing up..i don't want..i wanna turn back time..living life without worries..was so looking forward to growing up that time..and now?hahaha..so different..what am i doing?soon i'll have to enter the world i fear...can't i be a kid forever?i'm just a child trapped inside a grown up body......who knew nothing..nothing...what have i been living so far?doing so far?for what?for myself?i'm only a child...at this moment i knew that i'm.............................lost............................................................. just a lost child.......
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Irritated!
i don't know..i'm feeling damm irritated now..stop bothering me..i dunno!!i dunno!!what you want me to do??making me feel more guilty?i did try ok...i did try to make things right,but if it doesn't work out then what more can i do?i really can't stand this..i dunno. don't u get it?things are differents now..i don't know..
i've gotten my streamyx,cousin came to fix yesterday..was damn happy..but now i'm feeling damm irritated..and aggressive?and that idiot roach there go and scold me for no reason..say meet up on thursday..wait longer will die izzit?u think i have nothing better to do izzit?we have no school?no work?no other stuff to do izzit?you are on holiday not us!somemore scold me straight after i pick up the phone..i'm already fucking irritated already somemore wanna sparks my anger!!fuck off!i don't need this!
yesterday,play game with yen till late..tired now..we be meeting on sat if all things go well..watching Initial D movie!!so long never go out with her already..and make me think of old times..her bro now 10 years old d!!last time always go her house..her bro was like so small only..and her sis also..remember we use to play together..hahaha..will come to ur house if free lah one day...haih..but weekdays got sch and work..haih..i'm really sick and tired of my life!
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Friday, July 01, 2005
11:34 PM
No regrets..
i did something really stupid that day..well but now i know i'm glad i did it..my mind was realyl messed up that few days..one of the reason why i cannot do my work also..after seeing him on monday...and not to mention the broken plate and bathing twice..and loss of appetite and was like a zombie..=.="...i didn't know he could affected me that much..dei...it's because i knew there's still something...haih..isn't it wasted?maybe not..i dunno..haih...anyway.. i've been itching to give him a miscall to his new number since monday...he's tell yeez he's embarrassd to give me...haih..i was really thinking of giving him only a miscall..at least he got my number??!haih..for what..i was really torture by this though..should i or should i not?yes..in the end i did it..if i didn't do it..i don't think i can even finish my assignment..i gave him a miscall just before i start doing..cause i knew i wouldn't be able to do my work if i continue to do like that..was that stupid of me?friends what..can give miscall what...he call back...but i never pick up..or was that a miscall?but it's kinda long for a miscall..probably wondering who am i...it looks like a miscall though..but anyway..i didn't picked up..and i did a stupid thing...yes..i msg him..>.<"...it wasn't exactly stupid..but still..i realize i just had to msg him...what's wrong with me?i just don't want to live without regrets...i don't want later like someone and mr.h's(mr.p) case..better do what i wanna do now if not later no chance if anything happens...once again RIP..mr h...may your soul be blessed..so anyway..i did..i wasn't really expecting him to do anything or whatever..i just do whatever i wanna do..and live with one lesser regrets..but the next night.he miscall..so play miscall with him loh..probably he wanna sleep already..i was kinda happy...and then it was the same also the next day..but that happens in the evening..(i think his credit expiring soon already..RM 10 for 5 days only wat...)..and yeez say later she msg also he never reply..must be expire already..but i was really happy he miscall me before his credit expire..i was sleeping that time on the bus..=.=..too tired (without sleep dei..read last post if don't understand)...but that donkey credit really expire already..cause later that night miscall him also no reply..haih..he me,ang damn broke one lah..where got money to reload??and everytime reload 10 bucks..for 5 days??haih...someone should give him a RM 30 or more prepaid card as a present to him..why do i bother anyway..but at least now we are in a way back to talking terms and being friends..friends as in that kind who talks and well at least give a miscall once in a blue moon..at least now he will miscall me....probably don't feel that embarassed since i started it first...well..we are back to become friends..thanks to all the stupid and embarassing things i did=take the iniative to talk/keep in touch...i did it even though i felt embarassed too.. dei..see at least it pays off...but still when both of us talks to each other..still got the embarassed feeling there...we tend to talk nonsense to each other??or ask nonsense?=.="...well at least we try our best to get rid of that embarseed feeling..i really try sial..try to joke around also...well on that monday..umm..i accidentaly pushes him too hard..i think he hit his nose on the wheel..it was suppose to be a light push dei..i think yeez also got push?.cause that time some parts for my car came out and he was like turning to yes..i think it's the muffler..dei..if change already..teruk sial..so was really anxious..everyone it's like stopping him from changing..well i did apologize anyway...and that was the first time i dare to touch him after so many months...as in body contact(don't simply think ppl plz..).. it wasn't on purpose..too worry about my car..well. .at least now we are back to being friends...oh..an he got ask why i din't change my spoiler for my car,soemore say last time don't want this spoiler..haih..i wanna change back also lah..more stable if i change..not so drifty..but this spoiler also give the car more speed and acceleration cause it's lighter..but another reason i don't wanna change back it's you lah..you help me to change one mah this spoiler..i don't wanna change it..at least i have something u changed on my car..takkan u want me to tell u that?haih.....at least my car and my shared dc still got ur time records..but yeez erase his record for our dc for outbound already..>.<..only left his record for iro reverse..sooner or later yeez gonan break it..=.=..i want his record to be there..at least one also better than nothing..haih..hopeless me..but anyway i'm happy that all the things i done paid off..but even if it didn't i will still be glad that i did it..cause i know i least i won't regret later..and i have one lesser regret in life..so i will still do whatever i want to do from now on although it's stupid..dumb..embarassing or whatever..thanx mr.h..u taught me that..even though you are not here anymore..but you'll remain in our hearts..epecially someone's else heart..cause u make a difference in my life...although i'm not that close to you..but i know that you are a nice person..your going away have given me something i never would never get..taught me a valuable lesson..peace..and if can plz watch over that person..give her the strength when she needs it..remember you are not alone...cheer up.. oh..one more thing..roach came back!!!he called up on thursday night..and this time no one believe him cause he play a fool lying to ppl he came back and all last week i think..so this time padan!!no one believe he's back..hahahaha..until finally..got evidence all only believe..in a way..that idiot lie to us say coing back next month somemore!!but he never listens to us!!and shaz called just now..(he's with roach)..say roach really look teruk!!fat like hell and never shave!!omg!!shaz say cannot even recognize him anymore and roach just turn from bad to worse!!hahah..see lah..even shaz agree..shaz say he's really not presentable now..seelah!should have listen to us and lose that extra weight and shave right??!don't want to listen!wanna look like an obese afghan refugee!!and now i think he's bald also..accidentaly cut his hair or something like that..dei..fat..unshaven..bald..like a stalker sial...we say he better shave before he sees us!!if not don't see us!!wanna meet up soon..tommorow maybe..but dunno lah..nad got hans prob..i got my leg problem..i fell down today!!while walking to work..i saw a idiot branch in front of me while i was walking..i was think what can i branch do to me..and i was too lazy to walk around it..so i walk across it..mana tau my feet tripped.."tersangkut" on the branch..its was kinda big..and i fell..i was like flying dei!my bag went flying away..lucky didn't drop into the drain..phew..but my leg was like damm pain lah..couldn't move for a few minutes..just sat there..and no one to help me up..haih..i think got ppl looking also..idiot..cannot come and help me up izzit?look for what!!dun want to help then don't look!!what to laugh just go ahead..i know it's funny for you..=.=..my leg now teruk..right knee bleed..bruise a bit..left knee is the worse one..blue black until very teruk that kind..and i was thinking right knee should be more painfult than the left since scractch and bleed all..but mana tau the blue black knee is more painful..and i thinki kinda sprained it or something..internal injuries..my mom say??!=.='..left knee external only..and i have to walk with that kind of legs the whole day during work..i still went for work..lucky there got first aid kit..but each step i take is damn painful..and i can't bent my knee..it's damn pain!!imagine the pain!!but i have to..so i tahan the whole day at work..waas damn painful and i don't want my boss to worry also..so i tell her it's fine..and only a scratch..but actually damn painful..so hard to maintain my smile..i feel like screaming..so pain sial..at least sit down not that bad..but the steps really killing me..up and down..i feel like just rolling down and get it over and done with..each step..i have to bent my knee..and so many steps..agonizing man!!imagine the pain!!and whenever sit down.. not that bad..but the part is getting up..it hurts like hell..my left knee..surprisingly ,,the one that bleeds doesn't hurt that much..it's the one that is blue black..haih..how many days do i have to go with this pain?again!i'm always hurting myself!always falling down and hurt my leg!!i'm really clumsy..don't know why..until now also still that clumsy..guess i'm born like that..is that a good thing?well ppl always laught at my clumsiness..is that really funny??=.=....it's stupid..not cute..and not funny..it's stupid dei!pain..why am i always hurting myself..?from small until now..still ike that..never change..haih..seelah now..no need to go anywhere already..and the worst part is i have to force myself to walk normally in front of dad..cause he'll start massaging with his "Iron hand" if he knows..that time my leg will be goner!!but really damn pain when i have to pretend to walk normally...at least it's better than being a goner with dad's iron fist!!at least now can walk..but if dad massages..surely no need to walk for days already..i hope it's better 2morow..but mom say it's gonna be worse!!pain..really pain this time..really teruk..last time only one leg hurt not that bad..but this time both!..lucky no scratch on hand..but both palm are red..a bit pain but not too bad..it's the leg!!help anyone..plz heal my legs in an instant??anyone? p.s i'm walking like a stroke person right now....i need a tongkat..mom laugh at me..>.<..dei.. say i walk like old cacat woman..dei..=.="
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THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. jean (love this the most..don't sound guy or girl..)
2.jeannie (genie in the bottle?)
3. jeang (umm..lots of ppl don't know how to pronounce)
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
screen name?isn't that suppose to be online names??dei or names ppl call u??how come all put names pppl called??just list both out lah!
ppl called:
1. jean
2.genie in the bottle/guiness stout
3 rodent/hamster
online:
1. capercat86
2. bon_bon_cat
3. enigma
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. leg (not same length)
2. too skinny (bones jutting out..i look like someone with aneroxia nervosa!dei i just realize it when i look in the mirror..noo~!!am i getting skinnier?how come i can feel my bones in front now?last time can't leh..omg!)
3. eyes (haih..like goldfish popping out..cuz of what loh)
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. nose (mom's side..!a lot of ppl say nice sharp nose..heh=p)
2. small boobs (yes it's small..i admit,so what?it's the knowledge and character of a person that counts!not the boobs!..i know someone is gonna laugh when she sees this..that someone is obssess about boobs one..like boobs competition..everyday teasing me lah bout boobs..like her one very big?..wahahaha..u know who you are..hahahha..=p)
3. the sickness
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. crockroaches
2. scary supernatural stuff
3. lost contact with him and never get to see him anymore
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my specs
2. clothes
3. friends
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. spectacles
2. t-shirt
3.shorts
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. jay
2. utada hikaru
3. don't know how to list..cause a lot more falls 3rd
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE SONGS:
1. any of jay's song
2. black eye peas-where is the love?
3. ID-killing my love
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. understanding
2. trust
3. true love (who don't wants it?)
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. face
2. hair
3. body
THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
1. have fun=playing (arcade,ps,comp,online games..anything..theme park!i wanna go genting!!)
2. read (seldom d..=(..no money n time...but nowadays read comics > book..harry potter out soon!can't wait!!)
3. drawing ( umm.i think i have not been drawing since 1 year ago..must be really bad already)
THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. on the air-con
2. scratch leg
3. play gb
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. egypt (defintely!!i wanna explore!!i wanna be an archaelogist!!=(.it was one of my ambition..i wanna dig..discover..and learn!!i wanna learn hierograph?..dei!haih..impossible)
2. europe (greek,italy,germany,france especially)
3. japan
*a lot more places!!
THREE KIDS' NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. jean(hahaha..)
2. dunno. never think?
3. dunno.never think?
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. fulfill all my ambitions and dreams..(impossible!unless i have 100 lives.. so many things i wanna do and yet so little time..)
2. go around the world (visit all the places around the world)
3. talk things over with him
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. don't wear skirts ( unless force=>wedding dinners)
2. hate shopping!
3. love arcade and games guys like
*dei..lots more..no space to write..
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. afraid of insects
2. emotional
3. like cute guys (hahaha..)
THREE CELEB CRUSHES :
1.orlando bloom!!
2.jay
3.got one actor..i dunno his name.=/i don't remember names dei!
THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS SURVEY NOW:
hmm..who got blog ah?let me think..
1. yeez (wahahaha..)
2 yen
3. fallen
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Last minute!!
hmm..there's so many things to tell...well..i'll start with my assignment first..that day FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE-I NEVER SLEEP!!!!24 hours dei??!!the last time i slept was tuesday night...and i never gotten my sleep until thursday night???LAST MINUTE my assignment..cramming few weeks worth of work into what 2 days??more like 1 day!!probably if i didn't go to work..i'll be done earlier...but still first time dei!last time last minute work also no that bad one..surely can get at least 1 hour of sleep..this time..haih..all my own fault also..never do earlier..phew at least finish..even missed class..shit man..!writing and typing whole night non-stop!!i was really panic the last minute..never go for that lembu's tutorial in teh morning(anyway it's only presentations) but missed ms.w class..(lucky learn already in intro to research in adp..so not that bad..phew!)..i wasn't planning to missed her class..it's important i know..(although learn already also wanna go)..was planning to take the taxi..but on the end can't even finish by that time!!so no choice have to missed..and that idiot printer no ink at that time i wanna print!!lucky got spare inks!!i was like running around..really panic sial...when nad call.. i was like broke down..sounding hysterical already..printer not ink..writing not finish..didn't even eat..bath...brush teeth..done nothing!!lucky nad went to class...she never rewrite her original script..so not that bad an can get few hours of sleep..i go and rewrite the whole thing..doing triple work??more like co-triple work??!!but cannot finish in the end..so last resort..cut and paste my original script.!!she want the original script together with our typed version..haih...my original script like fucked up!!in front all write..and the writing get really worse behind..then behind lagi got cut and paste??and cut and paste word all really bad also..scribbling!!and all black..got glue here and there..teruk sial..really last minute!!in the end since missed class already so only going for later class..so went to bath and quickly chucked my "breakfast"..and rush out of house at 12 something noon!!!dei!!look like shit cause no sleep!!and like a mad dog..rushing around..!!tired..hungry..and i really look like a zombie..nad say so also when she sees me..!!my face really teuk that kind!!and i was damm fucking tired without my sleep!!but at last done!!no more last minute work!always tell myself..butin the end never learn the lesson..haih..funny fei..nad also say we always say no last minute work anymore and wanna change..but turns out we are still the same..even though we got our lesson..but still never learnt!!江山易改,本性难移!after a while we'll forget..even very teruk one also..see lah this time so teruk..but surely after a while forget already..somemore got lots more coming up..and all the new students all complaining already..cause all taking 4 psych subjects..hahahah...they say really teruk all damn stress already..a lot of work..got like 30 assignments all together??!!wahahahha..they all dunno..go and take 4 psych subjects..all adp students know..wahahahha..adp students all take 2 only..now they know!!wahahahah...funny dei..now u know why we take 2??somemore keep asking take 2 very slow finish the entire course...but see got benefits!!we won't be that stress and can concentrate..what's the point of taking 4 subjects and finsih faster and ur cgpa is like fucked up??wahahha..i'm evil dei?but i should use my time more wisely.. really lah no last minute work..must change dei!!haih...next week got lots of things to do??hmm...need to attend seminar..no experiment already that's y so lembu say attentd seminar to get the compulsory marks..have to attend 3 dei!!some dr. from overseas i think...got one is talking bout his new theory one??!=.="...hmm...lembu say it's good for us also..but lazy sial..last time..also we never attend one..cause that time adp was bonus mark.but this time is compulsory!!if don't get it..kena minus 2%!!2% u know..not 2 marks!!have to do write up somemore..that's means must really listen lah..i hope it's good.i think it will be interesting..most of them are..?never attend before so dunno...whatever..oh and that day i just read in newspaper..here got MPA one!!omg!! fnow only i realize..MPA just like APA!!finally here got an association already..last time dun have..MPA=malaysia psychologist association..dei!!makes life so much easier..the director for MPA..see before already..came to our college quite often??last sem colloqium come and give talk about bullying intervention program..somemore i think last sem few of our lecturers already doing some bullying program with MPA..with her??just know only when i read the newspaper..=.="..dr.goh's name usual lah appear in newspaper..but funny to see gerard's name also..hahah..we don't call him by dr. also..so funny to see the full name with the title come out..>.<...and i think that director of MPA is very close with S.L.O.T..around the same age mah..hahahha..colloqium that time see them talking together already..that day on tuesday also went for assessment that time see her talking and walking together..(pass by in front of me somemore)..walking to SLOT's room..somemore i heard asking SLOT."so u did the papers already?"..probably they are working on the program thingy..or something else..?but funny dei..!!around same age somemore...hahaha..old??>.<"...i'm bad...=p
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