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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
10:59 PM
2nd chance
thanks for the 2nd chance...i hope that there will be one...i have a 2nd chance to undo my mistakes...to at least have one lesser one regrets...i dunno will there be one?will it happen?i dunno...dun think so mcuh..dun hope so much..only god knows what the future holds..if it meant to be then it will..if isn't meant to be..then what more can i do right?this is life....you'll just have to accept life..let it be..i've learn to see things more wide..more broadly..i've grown?hahhahah..dunno....i'm still mentally a kid..still think so..don't wanna grow up..sigh...yet i'm growing older and older..i'm not prepared for this..i'm really just a kid..damn..
haih..anyway was happy to hear that news la..thanks..thank you.thank you for the help.
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Friday, September 23, 2005
11:01 PM
^.^..him..=)..
*sigh*..lol..kinda long never update..many things happen..lots of FUNNY THINGS happen=.="..kinda neway..changes.=.="..went straight for 3 days in a row..dei!!..at first tues went only. but then somehow wed went again!!OMFG!wed we went to 3 places!!so tiring..=.="..first klcc,then mid valley.. then ts =.="..dei!!hahahha..funny..actually thursday should be going 1u one but then haih...in the end went ts..i got a pair of new jeans on wed from mv..and finally got back my shaker from kinokuniya!i thought my voucher still can use!idiot!!when wanna pay that time..=.="..the cashier told me it's expired d!!then i look properly and i saw there's actually an expiry date down there!!!only 1 month??!wth??i thought 1 year..=/...different from gift vouchers..this is promotional voucher.grrrr..=/..wasted my vouchers cannot use d!!20 bucks u know!!but neway it's free one..but still=/!!haih.....still haven't really shop yet..maybe gonna get an extra pair of sandals..and some t-shirts??!i seriously need some..*sigh*..cheap t-shirts anywwhere??
haih..but was happy lah these few days..not only we are back to talking terms..but comfortable being alone with each other also..in a way la..last time he always try to avoid being alone with me for some reason..when yeez not there..he will try to walk away somehow..i dunno la..haih..he appear every single day..hahahha..lazy to tell lah actually..but all i know we are really back to being friends..talk quite a lot compare to last time when we are alone..it started on tues actually..dun really remember.. but know we talk quite a lot when he ask bout the thumb drive mr.pat lend to me..so explain to him loh..he thought it's cable for internet =.="...i kinda mixed up what happen on which day..so it kinda messed up..lol..but i know he dare come up to me to talk and come to me when i'm alone (as in when yeez is not with me d)..guess that's an improvement huh?he kacau me also..touch my hair =.="..dunno happen which day..i think wed..ohhh..and u know what happen on wed??!!many things!!firstly i drop my phone in the TOILET BOWL!!!OMFG!the phone slip and drop into the toilet bowl..squatting down that kind of toilet..and not only that ..before it drop..i just finsih PEEING on it..wanted to stand up and flush d..but the phone just fall from my pocket and hit JACKPOT!OMFG..i can;t think of anythign that time..all i can think is I MUST SAVE IT..MY PHONE!!!(my last phone died drowning btw)..so my phone was like bobbing in the toilet water??!so withought thinking much..u know what i did??yess!!YES,i just put my hand into the toilet bowl and reach for my phone in the toiletwater + my urine and pull it out from the water..safe at last!!but my hand..=.="..omg..i can't believe i did that!!how i wipe my phone and wash the cover and my hand countless of time with soap..it still smell somehow..but i can't do nething much..the phone was dead at that time..i took out all the important parts..battery..etc..to let it dry..when i told yeez she laugh like hell =.="..she say she exoected something happen in the toilet d cuz i took so long..she thought wallet fall inside toilet bowl but mana tau really something fall inside toilet bowl but it's d phone!so embarassing!later he also heard..and i think some of the pppl there hear also..i think that yean guy heard =.="..everyone laugh of course..omg..where got ppl like me one??=.="..>.<..my clumsiness no 1 in the world la..and my "funny-ness"=.="..who on earth will puttheir hand inside the toilet bowl like me without even thinking=.="...hahhaha..jean is no 1 man doing all this stuff.>.<..being the lauhging stock again =.="...*sigh*..i dun think i will ever change..from small till now..i'm gonna be like that =.="..guess it's part of jean?=.="..oh ya did i tell u i fall on my butt in the lrt station..=/..yeez there laughing..she make me fall one..see la..everyone looking somemore..laughing stock again >.<..it's not cute ok =.="..it's embarassing!!!why am i always liek that??gosh...it's really part of jean man..i'm unique =.="..can u find another person like me??this is embarassing..so anyway my x-man laugh like hell when he knows my phone fell into the toilet bowl..tease me somemore...everyone will also laugh la..damn!!it's embarassing!!i'm not telling anyone else nemore that i drop my phone in the toilet bowl..lucky it's ok and working now..oh well..neway got his new number also..he took my phone and enter it..it was on tues that time..ohh now i remember..mr pat and yeez there teasing me..when i took his phone to enter my name the time =/..grrr...tease until he ran away =.="..embarassed d..yeez there also another one..before that ..tease me =/..say wanna bocor my rahsia..what la..idiot..=/..lucky i never blush..omg since when i do?nonono..i dun blush!mr.pat say he ran away blushing =.="..haha..but taht was on tues..on wed the time he got took my phone again and enter his anothere number..he got another new digi line..now he got 013 and 016 =.="..i was busy driving..dunno he got take my phone and see what else..but i think he didn't see nething la..ohh and i remember,there's this bitch came and scold me and yeez fucking bitch just because she lost..if she dun wanna accept challenger then dun accept la..u accept means ppl will battle with u right?scold us fucking bitch for challenging her..mother..point at me and scoldsomemore..so damn fucking rude!!point at my face..my anger rising d one...wanna explode d..but yeez explode first..cause my x-man was playing for her car beside me..lose d somemore..she saw lost d..and then the bithc there scoldingher..walau..she explode..MAN!first time i see her socld until like that..walau eh!then me and him just keep quiet there..the two there scolding each other..hebat!!pertengkaran yg hebat!but that bitch walk away later..if not yeez wanna slap her d..last time she also did this to us..she scolded us and hit yeez somemore lasttime..push her also!damn terrible man that bitch!then later yeez walk away also..she was damn bloody pissed off..then x-man was like scared and ask me bout yeez loh...i was playing TA..no mood to play d..that time when the fight was on the time..so i told him let me finish first then i explain what happen..so after i finsih i told him..he so scared yeez was angry with him cause yeez scolded him also..first time scolded him until that teruk,he scared d..so we talk bout the fight..hahhaha..he can only hear the word "BITCH"..all he hear is that word..others dunno talking bout what..too fast d the english..all he hear is the word "bitch"=.="..he pronouce a bit like "fish" at first..hahhaha..and he didn't know what it meant =.=" until on thursday when we explain to him..funny la..then he keep using that word towards yeez..hahah..but joking only la..oh..and he came to me a lot of times when i playing alone..lol..when i was playing snapshot also on tues...he came and sat down beside me..talk loh..then wed also when yeez was angry..i went over to the 50cent machine also..on thursday the most la..when i was playing the shooting game..he also came..then later when i was playing ID also..dunno la..later when yeez went over to the other side to challenge our dc ( cuz i failedto beat bunta=.="..can beat one but dunno y so bad go and bang).he came also and sit beside me..just like old times..dunno la..watching..but when i get up, go over yeez ther and ask something..he sat down and insist on wanna play..=/...then later yeez chose the map d..he get up d =/...see la..but in the end he play la..i sat beside..hahahha..i felt weird..just 2 of us..there wasn't anybody in any machine on that row..he also feel weird i think..he drive kinda akwardly..dunno la.haih..he came near me a lot of times..stand beside me also a lot of times =.="..got plenty of spcae dei..i dunno la..oh and we found one new shooting game..hahahha..kinda fun and cute..he got play also one..i wanted to try it out a long time d when ckin mentioned actually..so manage to try it out..hahah..i won yeez one game 9-8..=p..she won me in the first few games..she became bad d later on..hahhaa..then good again..ohh..he came also when we were playing..he wanna help me play one..hahha..say yeez there bullying me..but actually my score was higher =p..but yeez say wanna play with me...i wanna play also..now i remember he came and borrowed 50 cents..hmm..where's my 50 cents??=.="..nvm la...forgot it..50 cents only..hahahha..(yeez sure say pilih kasih when she read this..hahahha)..oh..and i kinda play rock fever with him one round..kinda la..yeez let him play one round..so me and him side by side =.="..can't really concentrate actually.but did quite ok also...oh..an one more funny thing happen =.="..i was driving..and yeez and him and yean also i think is standing there..and he was also standing i guess..then my "so called fish" msg..idiot fish msg at the wrong time =/..irritating!so i passed my phone to yeez ask her not to open the msg..surely write all those things one that fish..then after i fisnih..he snatched the phone from yeez and sat down at the machine beside and wanted to see my phone i guess..i was so damn panic d..if he saw the fish msg..then he will think i got a new guy or wat..i dun want him to think that..damn..so i quickly trying to snatch back from him..dunno wat was i doing also..not thinking d..all i can think of "I NEED TO GET BACK MY PHONE AND DELETE THE MSG"..i think my whole body went over..he keep moving the phone about..and keeping it out of reach from me..so i keep leaning further over him..he was sitting..i was standing =.="..and my knee even went up the seat..=.="..ummmmm...then umm.my knee hit his "the part where men are amost sensitive"hahahha..after i snatch back the phone d..only i realize..he was like in pain..and squatting down d..say my knee hit his "private part"..hahahhahha..funny dei..i kee psaying sorry...i am really sorry..really..but i can't help laughing..everyone was laughing i think..funny la..but >.<'..really sorry..sekali mandul d then how..hahha..but dun think so that serious la..he say lucky not that serious..but he seems in pain..he say first time a girl hit his that part with the knee like that..accidentally one la..and it's the first time i hit a guy's that part there also wat with my knee..=.="..omg..wth man?..hahhaha..this is weird..dunno..of so many ppl..of so many parts..why must it be him and kena that part somemore..and why must it be me?..this is really weird..=.="..fated?hahahha...it's funny dei..dunno la...good he'll remember me then..hahahhaha...dunno la...i did msg him at night both of his phone..dunno which phone he using,so msg both to say sorry..he using both la..but turn out..the 016 line he only turn on today at around 4 something..cause the report finally came..but the 013 line was on yesterday..straight away i send straight away report came d,he received d la..he must think i weird..send two times..=.="..dunno la..but was glad la these few days..he will take the initative to talk to me d....and wil ltlak even thought me and him alone..i even put my hand on his shoulder..=.="..was naturally one la..friend mah..that time me and him walking him towards soul calibur..after i hit his "that part" d..he want "medicine fees"..=/..but in the end no la..say he will help us play soul calibur...but i know these few days..i me and his hands got "ter-touch quite a few times"..pressing buttons mah..>.<..dunno la..all i know that it's back like old times..he will come beside me and talk to me even though when there's nobody else around..=)..this is call friends mah..oh ya..did i mention mr.pat?.. he made mr pat angry..he was only joking..cause yeez call him "si fei lou"..so i call him "si fei lou" too..then x-man keep threatening me..say he will tell pat that i call one..=/..yeez started one..then in the end he tell d..i "eat the dead cat" loh...can't say yeez say one wat..x-man there keep saying me..=/grrr..say i wanna fitnah orang someore..say dun wanna admit i say one..then in the end got one time..he called mr.pat "si fei lou" also..he joking only..wallau mr.pat got so angyr throw his bag at him..omg..i thought at first mr.pat was joking..but after that mr,pat look so angry..omg..we were all there watching..x-man there scared again..this happens on thursday..hahhaa..poor thing..but a bit kecil hati right?joking only worr...haih..dunno la..i call the time also nothing..haih..poor x-man..hope mr.pat ok with him d...haih...oh and the bitch did appear again on thursday..but she didn't do anything la..come a while then leave d..hahha..we got yean here to back us up..scared wat..bitch man she!hah..we on accept challenger she also never challenge wat..talk wat so much there say we nvr choose happo inbound..challenge us la..if u want happo inbound..talk so much..u will lose also lah!noob!HMPHH!fuck off!
okie...i'm tired d..update next time..hehhe=)..kla..have to work again 2molo..=/...tiring...but think bout the $$$$$$$..i spending like water man these few days!!omg..keep taking money out!!omg!!spend a lot d these few days..!!!my acc getting lesser..!!grrr..=/..nvm..pay's coming =)...^.^v
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Monday, September 19, 2005
6:54 PM
sick..bitching bout exams
i'm sick..damn..tired..and running nose non-stop.snezing like hell.damn!fuck work!i had enough!!u can have the money!!i don't want it!!*sigh*...reminds me i haven't bitched bout my exams yet.oh well.it's gone..GONE!my A..i dunno..social and health psych maybe there's still a chance..but research methods gone d!!A- plz..at least let me have A-..i don't want a fucking B!fat chance man!first time i work so hard for my assignments and actually study few days earlier??!hahhaa..normally is the night before or one day before..i want my first class honours!!i'm working myself to death for my assignments..plz la..let me have it!damn..that bitch say her class she only giving 5 A's.i know already not me.do exam the time also damn stress d.i was once again wrong!!i thought all the ppl are like us the kind..feeling right at home d.but exam the time all real NERDS sial..do question no need to think one.do so fast..omg..all of them i see alos like that..i dun even have time for the short answer,the can have time to write one long essay!!OMFG!what is this??!=/.stress to be among all these A students..how on earth they manage to study for 4 subject and still can get A?oh fuck man..miss adp =(..my relax life is gone..sigh..really miss those times..so relax and had lots of fun.but i got this kind of feeling somehow i wanna beat them!i wanna show them hahahha..even last minute-er can do it!!hahha..maybe i'm just jealous that they are so smart.hahhaa..dunno just wanna beat them..but not even putting 100% effort..hahahhahha..i never do actually,i realize somehow i can not really put 100% effort,i dunno y.i f iwant to study,sure can one..i revise every night ah..woah..then maybe i can do it..haha..butthat is so not me!!last minute!yeah!and can even not panic...still can read comics and online?wtf man?nad also like that..something is wrong with us man..we try to change but cannot la..studying everyday is not our kind of things leh..i can't even sit still for few hours to study unless exam time is near..hahaha..sit 10 hours gb also nvm..but 10 hours study ask me die better!!haihz..see la..dunno how am i gonna get my first clast this way..haihz..wtf is wrong with me?
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My heart will go on
Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go till we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
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Friday, September 16, 2005
11:55 PM
him..again??!i my as well dedicate my whole blog to him..*sigh*...>.<
lol...is always bout him isn't it?hahhaa.haih..what to do?you tell me.i really dunno what to do anymore,seriously i really don't..just letting things as it is..sigh..really..wtf am i doing?*shrugs*...haih...
i know it's bad to take leave again..but i need a break!!=p...i feel so lifeless working and working.....!it's my holiday >.<..or am i just pure lazy?hahahha..so went to ts loh ..oh mr.pat..erm..=.="..yea..he's my new pet bro...=.="..he kinda ask us to join his ex for lunch...hmmm..he seems to want yeez to come along too..even willing to belanja..but dunno is talk only lah!dun see him giving back!!!=/..my money gone man...went to kim gary..b4 that he told me low yat plaza RM 10 set lunch..hahaha..very funny!!!in the end o.O"....omg..dunno how much $$$$$ gone d just for that lunch..=/..well the food was nice though..full.. then later after lunch went back up loh...wasn't really expecting to see him on today..but he appear..was glad that he appear lah..it's been 2 weeks since i last saw him..when he come i didn't see..i was busy paying back mr.pat's money....was faqcing mr.pat..so can't see whoever that came..but yeez was facing me so she saw and told me =.="..so loud somemore..idiot..mr.pat can hear la!!!that donkey go and say so loud somemore..wat "ur man is here..happy lah...bla bla."damn man..mr pat was so close to us =.="..dunno he can hear or not...=/..but when i know he's here..omg..totally can't concentrate on the calculation d,mr. pat no change..fuk man..all my so call cognitive processes just got disrupted..psych??hahahha.....=.="..my brain just stop functioning for some strange reason..why is it always like that..wasn't listening to a word mr.pat saying..was just taking his money and putting his money back inside his wallet then take again then put back again..mr.pat look at me weirdly =.="..hahha..wonder what must i be doing.haih..but after a while my brain is back to normal again..damn!wtf is wrong with me??i can't always be like that!!!wtf? haih..he looks tired..=.="..probably come after school gua..haih..no exams meh?trials??we are really back to talking terms d..that day ask him play soul calibur for us..never play pula..dun have our password gua..>.<..he knows my password d..!fuck man!at first he ask our acc one..then he ask my one too..he ask yeez one..then yeez ask him to ask me..damn..then i was kinda blur also that time dunno what's happening..so i ask him "huh?"..he like zha dou..he ask me didn't i lsiten to what he say just now..=.="..then he ask again loh..but how u want me to say it out..ur bday date leh.!!so i said ask yeez..and then walk away..i umm..feeling embarassing d..i feel my face becoming hot d..no!!i do not blush!!!nononono..!!!=.="..but in the end he knows also la..>.<" i dunno what he will think!damn!!hope he don't realize it got something to do with him..>.<..haih..dunno la..same old thing again...i saw him peeking..he saw too i think??dunno la!!!haihz..wtf man..he came and stand close to me also..haihz..oh..and when i was playing our car..was just playing for fun..dunno wat map d..yeez dunno say wat i very teruk or wat..normal..hahaha.>.<.my face where got so easily blush one>.<...yikes..but yeez say i do blush one =.="...damn man..but i was kinda happy la..that he back me up..although it's really nothing..but i dunno la..just feel happy?=)..haih..then later when yeez playing our car..i took a chair and sat down beside her..then he came and stand behind me..each of his hand putting on the seat support on the machine yeez was playing and the machine next to her..so i was kinda blocked inside >.<..didn't dare to get up..just sit there..i actually wanted to go toilet d..=.=..he umm..came quite close to me..when i kinda lean back a bit..i can feel his shirt????=.="""..damn!is that his shirt or his body!!!=.="..but only a short while...i quickly lean back to the front..scared kena again >.<..but he came kinda close..=.="..cause when i look up to the right to look at mr pat..i saw his arm..was just above my head..his hands was on the seat support..=.="..oh..and he umm..touch my hair..=/..itchy hand..purposely want..wanna tease me or wat i dunno..do twice somemore..somemore i thought is mr.pat do one..look at mr.pat start warning him and kinda scolding him but in a joking way la..mr.pat say it's not him and give me me the "difitnah look" and say it's "he" do one..."he" was busy laughing there..hahhaa..i didn't believe mr.pat loh but the third time when i look back to mr.pat again (realize i haven't finish scolding/warning him..my reaction is slow one..hahha..few seconds only realize i never finsh my sentences)..then i saw his hand like was halfway reaching out towards my hair again and quickly keep it..trying to hide it..but too late d..from the corner of my eyes i saw his hands was moving d..then mr.pat say "see..she saw d.."then i know it's not mr.pat doing one..but i pretend i dunno and still "fitnah" mr.pat instead..>.<..hahhaha..if not u want me how to scold him worr..wonder why he wanna do that?touch my hair for what?>.<..nothing to touch also la..haih..then mr.pat hold my entire head and shake it and say this is the way i do one not those one...he and mr.pat there laughing..then later when i lean over to the left to see yeez entering her ranking number in the phone the time..his hand was on the seat support ..i think i went to close d..so my head touches his hand =.="....his hand didn't move away..=.="....=.="..dunno la..dunno..we kinda came in contact a lot of times today..wtf man!later when mr.pat was fooling around with the chair the time also..i nearly fall one him..phew.didn't la..but he sat on my chair =.="..cause that time was busy stranggling mr.pat..but he gave back me la when i come back..after i'm done stepping on mr.pat's shoes..wahahaha.he stand up and let me sit back loh...haih...later when yeez still busy playing..he ask for my version 3 japanese version card..gave him loh and one buck also..he ask about my eng version 3 also..i say i dun wanna to work d the car..then he ask la..talk a bit loh..then i remember yeez got eng v3...so i say wait i go and ask yeez..but he say no need..=.="..i thought u want?or izzit u want my card only not other ppl or wat?haih..dunno la..dunno..really dunno..but i asked yeez anyway,she didn't want either...haihz..dunno..oh and today when i drive yeez V3 car..happo outbound..he was there to see..haihz..i want him to see i got improve la..but drove quite badly ..damn especially the nearending part..lose control..hard to control..bang like hell..man..so ugly...haihz..cannot really concentrate also with him sitting beside the next maching there..=.="..i did try my very best d..but when i play V2..my oubound time 2.20..consider my best la..and he was beside also..hope he saw my time..look i improve dei..look at me..i'm not as shit as last time..i want him to know i improve..but everytime he will either not be there to see me play or when he is there,i will somehow play badly..fuck man!!oh..and i got the ID card mr.pat dun wanna use d..i'm gonna use it to train,to battle with ppl..to gain more battle experience..no need to scare percentage go down or level down..can just battle withouht worries unlike our shared dc..(i can only battle with really really noob ppl)..this one it's a kinda abandoned car..so i can just train..but it's really slow..and the points??!wtf man!mr. pat go and play four course until no points d..no wonder the car so slow la!did a few battling with yeez..nice la the feeling of battling..but was somehow different when i drive this car..i'm too use to our shared dc d..this one option D somemore..it felt different..drove a bit like shitty...especially outbound..dunno y..lost control..=.="..it was a boost off match also like that ..it felt light..hmmm..i don't really know how to control this car yet..i still prefer my shared dc more..='(..oh..and when i was battling with yeez the time..iro map..after "i was stuck at the jumping pins there the time and had to make a u-turn..yeez was already in front d..damn stupid mistake!damn me..and then he appear..fuck hell..appear behind me..damn man..thought he went back d..cannot drive d..=.="..and he will think i very bad..cause yeez was already so far in front..nono..it's mistake....i improve d..y didn't u come b4 that??y everytime i drive badly d then u come..i really improve d la...can u see or not..?haihz......anyway i no need to drive d..he was there d..lost concentration..damn!wtf man!then later he say he wanna play...he was sitting there d..but i told him la i need to train..yeez also say..so he let me play loh..he help me choose the map =.="..he help me choose outbound..i dun wanna play outbound one ='(..but nvm la..since he chose d... then he went over to yeez side..lucky also..at least can concentrate more..this time my ending was ok..i let go very early knowing the boost is there..if not surely bang d..but the part behind bang d =.="...the distance with yeez then can see further d..oh and i'm trying the part going up the hill using 5th gear..but i didn't manage to do it..hha.bang..=.="..what is wrong with me..battling the time wann try new things..akagi also..try 5th gear..bang la..wtf man?should use back safe way right?but no..itchy hand somehow..battling the time wanna try new things..the usui clockwise battle also..i wanna try to turn 5th gear in the sharp corner (normally i go back to 4th gear then only faster go back to 5th gear)WTF is wrong with me??battling only wanna try new things!!!!u tell me is this itchy hand or wat???ITCHY HAND!i can't help it la.!!dammn!this is bad!! haih..but glad that he appear today la..happy la..haih...sad case man me..sad case..haihz..missing him again..oh he bought back a phone d..now can msg him d..haihz..hopeless!!
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wedding dinner..
ok this is suppose to be a post long ago.too lazy to update.went to my cousin's wedding dinner at legend hotel last friday actually.my aunt came down..lol..we went to do our hairs..my aun wanted to do their hair bfore the dinner..=/..they asked me to go too..was pull along..i did my hair too,aunt pay for it.hahaha..nice hairstyle but *ouch*..the process of making it hurts...my hair..ouch...to make it stand..ouchies..cut it short too at the same time too..gel it up..ouchies..it really does hurt especially when the hairstylist scrunch up my hair...owww..i feel like my whole hair is gonna be pull off..=/..i took some pics but all gone!!!it's save inside my comp and my comp broke down few days ago..grrrr..reformat..al lthe pics gone!!wore a skirt..yea..a skirt..jean skirt..i know i dun wear skirts..=.=".. was really force to..mom won't allowed me to go in jeans or pants or slacks or whatever..=/..haha..how long have i not wore a skirt???for god sake!!hahaha..=.="..years?when was the last wedding dinner..hmmm..forgot...hahaha..=p..wasn't actualy comfortable with it..lol..my legs wer cold..brrr..shivering..wore the new light pink sandals mom bought for me..it's quite nice..i dun have anymore sandals..lol..have been wearing shoes these days..all my sandals were all worn out,so didn't bother to really buy any and have been wearing shoes since last year..lol..but because of this dinner =/..had to buy one..haha..mom say i look more feminine and with the whole entire like this..and my nice long legs..=/..it's the skirt and the sandals..>.<..a lot of my relatives say i look different and nicer,more grown up?it's the hair i think..=.="..and the way i dress??never..no..i'm not going to dress like that unless it's speciall occasion..=.="..jeans is still my choice..hahahha..but i wanna learn that hairstyle..i need those spray gel really..hmm..learning..it makes me look different and more mature?learning..but i dun think i wil lever manage to learn it..i give up on it too easily..fuck it..not going ot waste time on my hair nemore..i gave up!!my hair will always look like this..damn..looks shitty..i dunno..feel it looks bald..i have a high forehead..hmm..but seriously..i too felt more feminine too when i wear skirt =.="..gosh..i have this weird feeling..i dunno..weird..felt more confident with my new look..cause i look more pretty???hahahhahaz..dunno...they say i look better..sigh..guess i get to feel like a princess for one day..hahhaa..after that back to the plain old jane..the swan turn back into an ugly duckling..hahhaha...anyway..dresses and skirts..cosmetics..hairdo..it isn't my cup of coffee..sigh..sometimes i wonder shouldn't i be a guy instead?don't i like what normally guys like..=.="..look at one good example ID..games?i rather spend my time playing than go shopping..i sux at fashion stuff,cosmetic,grooming myself..blabla..those kind of things gals normally like??i really do..god,i don't even know how to tie my hair nicely,it end up messy in the end somehow,that's y i have given up on long hair...*sigh*..ppl say i look cute in 2 ponytail braids,like a small china girl..hahahha..fuk it..no more long hair =/...hahahha...hmmm..oh well i't's just me..can't change that i guess i'm unique?i am..hahahha...
oh so anyway....a lot of ppl came..500++ i think..but the food sux!!hell!the shark fin is so damn fake!!it's like pieces from winter melon or mihun..so fake!!you call that shark fin..an the soup sux!!all the food were not really nice either..but the environment was nice..nice music,big stage with a piano and the wedding cake on stage..they even have a pianist!the spot lights were beautiful..guess they really pay for the environment not the food..=/..the bride even dedicated a song to the bridegroom and play the piano herself..and later they kiss on stage..wow..ppl these days..hahahha..anyway..it ended quite late..and was really tired cause the next day have to g oto work..damn..my saturday ='(..my aunts stay till sunday..and they went back..hahaha..
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wow..haven't been updating for such a long time..phew..lots of things happen..will update next time..just brief a bit here..lots of things happen..hmm..aunt came down..attend wedding dinner in legend hotel..well..it was nice environment..food bad though...exams..holiday..got a new pet bro =.="..comp broke down..bro's graduation..matta fair coming up..am i going too??plz let me go..i really wanna be at bro's graduation day..=/..rosh prob..lol..lots have been happening..but too tired to update here..2day-yen and me went library..watch show...mr pat came too..came to fix my comp actually..hahahhaz..wow..lots to update..till next time..tata!all will be update in next post~!i'm really procrastinating,ain't i?lol..it's holiday neway..i'm allowed to=p..!!
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Thursday, September 01, 2005
11:48 PM
him....
today went..wasn't expecting really to see anyone..including him.but yea,i was hoping i would at least get a glimpse of him.and guess what??my wish came true once again,thanks...i hope this gift won't be taken away from me soon..he's there.he only came in the afternoon la..prob after school.today,seems weird..not much ppl in the morning,but go lots of fishes..thanks to fishes..my deal with yeez seems to be going on fine..hope so. I really don't wanna sell my car..it has some improtant meaning to me somehow..i dunno...but somehow i just don't wanna sell it..*sigh*...i mean i'm willing to spend on her car and she can spend on my car once in a while also but no matter how..i really hope i dun hope to sell it off.is it him?*sigh*...i dunno also..=.="..anyway..yea..today he appear..hmm..his hair seems fine again..weird..how come the last time i see it it's shoter?never comb today =.="..no need to comb la..naturally stand up one..that kind of hair..hahaha..haiz..same old thing..today he seems exceptionally umm..different?dunno la..he seems to take the initative to talk to me gua..haih..he got help us play soul calibur somemore the past few days..i dunno he help play my account or my shared acc with yeez..but i gave him back 5 bucks la for helping us/me play..takkan my account rite??then surely he knows the pass already..shit!!the pass is about him la!!our acc he knows the pass one..cuz saw b4..that one nothing..but my acc shit man!!if he knows...>.<".. haih..today he stand close to me when yeez was battling v3..ah loong was helping our car battling..versus angel boost off=.="...that's why need ah loong's help..hahha..then he came and stand beside me..=.="..at first didn't care..he was standing at the next machine one..then after that stand nearer pula..then yeez's phone rang..i quickly take over her phone la..she there busy playing..her dad called =.="..so never pick up lohh..let it ring..then he came and talk to me..then take yeez phone n see..=/..tell me say the nxt time it ring..he's gonna pick up..hahha..yeez will die man..she will of course kill me first..so i scared..then he say it's ringing d..and he press the button d..so i scared quickly take n see..never think twice.."kan cheung"mah..hold his hand =.="..ummm..he was holding the phone tight with both hands..and i umm..kinda hold his hands and move it to see the phone...=.="!!!!then he see me like that say no la..just joking only..idiot =/..then only i realize i was holding his hand..omg =.="..of course let go d la that time..but it just struck me suddenly after i put down my hands d that i did that..it's normal la for friends..but then again..we r back to talking terms not long ago only..so dunno what he thinks la..a moment of silence was followed..but only a qucik moment..then he started joking loh..about the phone la..then later play a fool with yeez..yeez really thought the phone rang and he picked up cuz he pretends to talk on the phone..hahhaha..so funny..both of us were laughing there..yeez of course like stupid only lah.kena fooled..hahhahah..=p..then later when yeez n ah loong busy battling again..both of us were standing at ah loong's place la..he stand beside me..haihz...came so close somemore..no space meh??haiz..put the hands so close..somemore...dei i no space d leh..then his hand later kena la..touched my arm..terrible..stand so close for what..i feel packed..cit was like an inch a away only.. can feel his shirt??=.="..don't dare to turn left to look..=.="..keep looking at yeez only and ah loong..and kacau ah loong..that ah loong ah...cute at times really..mischievious..got the urge to touch his face..and i did.squeeze his face...hahhahha..and pat his head..hahha..still haven't ask him to become my pet bro =.="..dei!!!must have the courage to ask!!haih...anyway..after yeez finish playing she stand up also..then i kena squeeze to the left pula..he standing there so close..then yeez there standing on my right..omg..haihz..went so close to him d..>.<..damn man!!then later when i went to take our card out..his hand was on the seat support and got the small annoying "noob" kid there blocking my way..(ppl haven't finish taking card out..wanna sit there)..so i kinda lean back on the seat support also..i nearly fall mah..so i think =.="...i lean back on his hand??does it hurts??=.=""..dunno la..his hands there..but after that i quickly get up d..and stand straight..dei..then later take card out..then yeez walk away..and everyone else was not there d..takkan i stand there meh?i stay for a while..he still stand there also..nothing to see d..nobody playing also..we just standing there like idiots..then later after that i walk away loh..=.="..didn't want to but takkan want me to stand there meh?so follow yeez go the other side...haih...dunno la..but was glad that he turn up today... oh..did i mention mr.pat came today also?he ask me actually about us scoming to ts..so concern about yeez sickness..hahha..somemore he teman us to eat at the 10th floor food court..the food court really nice the environment..very spacious..i like the bamboo stick..and the area there..the food was ok la..but was too spicy for me..they put chilli in my yee mee!!!=/..didn't know that until ate it..yeez didn't ate nething..she went to buy bread later to eat...mr pat followed us too =.="..hehehe...prob too concern bout yeez?haih..dun understand..see him like that..still confuse?and that gal also..(i'm so use to call her "that gal" d,and no i'm not going to call her name!!)..cuz i dun like her..so not going to call her name..she's going to be called "that gal" as long as i live!!she can do so many things behind the scene just to get her guy..OMG..so many things..unwanted things..tricks??dirty tricks??don't like..i just don't like her..dun ask why..just dun like her somehow..idiots..=/..a nerd that have bitch characteristics??!!terrible!
oh ya..today spend quite a lot...!!oh and didn't get to talk to ckin..cuz when she came..mr.pat kept talking to me..and everytime ckin wanna say something..mr.pat talk pula..in the end i guess she gave up..never talk d..me also want to go toilet..but when came back she's not there d..wanna ask how's her merdeka celebration..hmmm..oh well..heard ah loong say..BB there got a lot of ppl on countdown for merdeka..3 million??huh??or was it 3 thousand??eh?forgot =.="..
Oh...and today ppl happy lah?angel finally came..but ppl there don't dare to ask..eleh..me start first again...like i dun feel stupid n embrassing asking...but dahlah ppl later regret...(say what somemore if he comes,i'm definitely gonna ask bout mr.h)if dun give a little push.ppl will ask meh??haihz..later regret sial..so start loh...oh..mr.h real name is not pau cheun leh..it's yong poh kean..hahhaz..same age as us..studying in time's academy about cars..ohh..?ppl got so many details d..happy?got the cheek to say i ask stupid questions =.='..at least it's still useful in a way..if i dun ask stupid question..u will get that much details so soon meh?eleh..and at least angel is quite a ok person..he talks..thought he was much like a wooden stick last time..now surprise to see him talk to other ppl..??omg..what happen to that wooden stick?weird..oh..and he got all of mr.h's cards too..once again now i can say RIP mr. pk..not pc=.="..sorry for the wrong name..pk..
But today was really tired...was yawning the whole day..never gotten enough sleep..didn't slept well..my reflexes really slow today...play ID also slow d..every map slow 2 sec..wtf??so kebetulan!!!then dancing also slow man..!!FAILED man!!i can't believe it!!rock fever also...=.="..shooting also...dunno why la slow la..few seconds only react..!!OMFG..maybe it's the tiredness..??dunno la..*yawn*..okla..tired d..sleepy..bye..update more next time =.="..*yawn*......
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