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Friday, December 26, 2008
7:24 PM

Bad Luck!!!

Having loads of really bad luck lately..dammit!!
you'll see why :(..

I'm a jobless fresh graduate....-_-''..(okie maybe I'm too picky and slacking off a bit here and there :p)
Out of cash..(fine..I spend way too much!It's MEGA SALES OKIE!how can one resist!)
My results are at stake...(well..nvr go class..*ahem* no comment*)
Cut my finger and still not yet heal completely..(bloody lotus root#%*#^!*#^)
Having health problems..(sigh don't mention..)
the worst..................................

I GOT FREAKING 'KEPIT' BY A BIG AUTO GATE..IT'S MADE OF STEEL..METAL..AND HEAVY!!! err maybe stainless steel ?-__-

FUCK MAN!DIU!KANINA CB!!#$^@$@^%!!
why everyone want a piece of me even the auto gate!??!
went over to yen's place ytd(her dad really cook nice lunch and dinner!)..and then while I was leaving..she open the gate..and while I was halfway through...the gate close..and obviously you know what happen next..

PAIN...........
PAIN..................
PAIN.....
PAIN...............
PAIN ................
PAIN ...
AND MORE PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Imagine a little shrimp..
A chopstick..
'kepit' it with the chopstick..yes..like this.

BUT with 10 times the force!!!!!!!!!!!!
(off topic: the shrimps look delicious btw..)

T_T...pain..and after that I still gotta go home and mop sweep and wash the toilet..wtf
Today it hurts like hell...My bone feel dislocated and not mine anymore..
Not to mention I'm having err bone problem actually..health problems..
yeah -_- I got back to seeing the taiwan doctor who heal my thyroid last time..cause I had a very severe stomach ache for few days..
and guess what -_-'...
yesh more "good news"...

*sigh*...apparently my spinal bone/back bone whatever la senget already..and 'hempap' the heart..so my heart can't function properly became weak..not enough blood -__- and my whole body circulation is affected because of this, and I end up having blood clog at my ovaries -_-'...of all things..and if I don't treat it, I'll have tumor or some thing laters or maybe cancer..sigh..that's why I'm having problem with my menses..the doc say this prob has been going on for quite some time already..my sitting posture cause my bone to be senget, itulah I always hunchback..

So I'm on medication..
and they bloody fucking pull my bone with the machine..and manually -_-....yesh manual..
By hand..
it's smtg like a massage but...
10 times more pain and no it's not enjoyable..
I can hear my bone sound -_-' 'crackkkkkkkkk' or was it 'trraakkkkkk'...wtf..

and my whole back will be pain for the entire week..
make it the whole time..
cause I go back to see the doctor every week..
It was supposedly one time..and then the rest is medication..
BUT T_T...they found out my shouder senget..my posture la..T_T
they pull again last week..sobs..
Pain till can cry REALLY!!!

The entire week I tried to maintain a right posture..legs down and no more legs on table :(..it give extra burden to your back ..sit straight, walk straight..no slouching..T_T..torture..
SHould be okie already this week...
BUT bUT BUT NOWW..
THE BLOODY AUTO GATE 'KEPIT' ME..
I THINK MY BONE OR SOMETHING WENT SENGET ALREADY LAH!!!
PAIN LIKE SHIT...!AND WHEN BEND DOWN EVEN WORST!
or internal injury..HAIhhzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!

CCB LA..DIUUUUUUUUUUUU!! serious injury on x'mas day..=X..!
SICKENING!
and having to put up with dad ..he went for business trip to langkawi for a few days ..back ytd night :(..what a bliss to have freedom for the few days!!
sleep eat anyhow I like..and of course late night out!!wohooooooooo!!I took the car out on xmas eve with my gals..:p
I always thought my skill was reaallll.llyy bad..but never knew I could drive like a F1 driver..!!

Fast...

Furious...

and...

DANGEROUSLY!muahahahha!!!

I pull a stunt I didn't think I'm capable of O_o I swerve to extreme left at the very last minute before the divider..because I realize I was in the wrong lane last minute..nee to go into the carpark road.cars were all going very fast..woosh man O_o ...~syiok....I kinda love the feeeling...LOL!!!!and my kancil was going 100km/hr after that..!old kancil can't go too fast or else it'll err feels like it's flying on air(max around 80km/hr)..but..HAHAHAHAHAHAH!NICEeee..!!!
but still driving is a stress to me lah -_-"..

and I went to the bloody bank(atm machine) at 12.40am ALONE..wanan get robbed izzit?!LOL!!what a night -_-'..
That's what happen when dad's not around :p..!funn!!

But still...I'm having
Bad luck!!dammit..

and bloody shit..now I cook already everything..dad told me not coming home to eat last min..wtf!?..today is old cucumber with pork ribs soup -_-..
I wanted to boil 'lor hon kor' actually..it's a herbal drink..but I realize nvr buy the lor hon kor -_- and the 'mat zhou' (err..it's in the so called 'dates' family like red dates, black dates..etc..the big big big one..) got infested by ants cause I forget to put it back into the container..that time first time I boil the drink it was a sucess :)..I used winter melon sugar, but actually you can also use rock sugar if you prefer..but never use normal sugar, else you'll never get that type of sweetness I guess.plus you need to put a lot if you use normal sugar and not so healthy :p

Now...how am I gonna finish a 2 person meal including the soup....I cook extra brinjal somemore :(..*sigh*..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Saturday, December 20, 2008
2:36 AM

A gift by the lotus root...

While I was preparing the soup ingredients for the dinner on wednesday..suddenly I got possesed and cursed by some evil spirit and start waving the knife like a mad woman..AHHH!!I can't control my hand...and....bloodd...
OKie well I got carried away..=.=' anyway..when I was preparing the soup for the dinner....this was what happened ..:(..ouch.

Bloooddddddddddddddddddddd...everywhereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..!!!OMGOShhhh!!!!s

*ambulance sound fading in background*.....my saviourr is heree!!!!!!!

The handy first aid kit!!MUAHAHAHHAH!!

and...the MUST HAVEeeeeeeeeeee!!GERMS DIEEE!!

The results:

freaking hell knife..from china..the special knife made from the cannon body..very sharp somemore..no nid to sharpen this knife for one year :) and it's really sharp..different from other knife cut also easier..=.= am not promoting this knife..im suppose to be cursing it -.-

FREAKING BLOODY KNIFEE!
it is bloody after all..=.= there my blood stain on it...

Was CHOPPING THESE LAR..GRR stupid lotus root..ingredients for soup that day :)

More ingeredients for the yummy soup..btw this time I boil it for 4-5 hours really more taste compare to last time!really yummy and best part no salt or any 'artificial ingredients' added..all my soup aare homemade and original! and of course tasty :p..Im getting good at boiling soup man..LOL LOL!praising myself!!HAHAHAH!!

The recipe is pretty simple actually..
pork ribs..
lotus root..(china lotus root better)
and some kacang will do..
water..(depend how many ppl drink)
and firstly boil it with big fire..and later let it simmer with small fire for few hours :)

That's all..and use gas if you can, soup taste yummier if gas boiled..crockpot way just can't beat it somehow..:)..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Thursday, December 18, 2008
11:07 AM

live-in-maid

I've freaking mop and sweep the floors ..and WASH the TOILETS!!! yesh -_- im a live in maid aka mom aka daughter..that's how I earn my allowance which is like err little?..damn :(
Anyway I've done my housechores for the week so am free to go out with my gals for dinner tonight, yen came back from aussie and we're meeting finally!! :)
Personally...
I'm sick of taking on the role of mom..
daughter..
and maid..-_-'
*sigh*...While other kids enjoy their holidays..I'm stuck home doing housechores..weekly chores daily chores..wadever..
While other kids study for their exams and thesis..I have to cope with the house and school at the same time!GRRrrrrrrrrrr!!no rest days!!!!
SICK OF FREAKING HOUSE CHORES LA!!!
I have to cook and clean dishes every single damn day..well almost la..
clean the house and toilets every damn week..
do laundry every alternate days..
clean the rubish bin every err tues, thurs and sundays..
-_-'zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
It's not easy okie....u try juggle between house and school and tell me how does it feel..and no you can't have off days!!!
*sigh*..I really miss mom..not only the fact that I get lighter chores..but ..haihz I dunno..I miss her a lot lately..really..
I'm really tired taking over her role..have to please and serve dad..have to juggle between schools..probably that's why I'm doing kinda bad in school besides thesis la..thesis went really well :)..
Other people have xtra time to study..do assignments..play wadever shit..
I have to do house works okie..and my part time jobs..and schools..if not where the heck I get my damn money!?For your info..my allowance was only RM100 per month and I work like a freaking maid..now naik d la to 200...if not labour torture la :(..!!!RM100 how to survive in KL WALAO!!!!don't ask me how but I manage to in the few years as a uni student :D cool huh?
that's why I only have pasar malam bags and clothes..LOLL?!?!
no la..not that bad la..mom usually buy some for me last time....haihz..now..I have to work la..part time jobs online and stuff la ..the money will sustained me for months :D..which explain my overspending lately -_-"..
don't ask me how I sustain my arcade habits last time with RM100 per month allowance..LOL!!?but miracously I still manage O_o well starve without lunch la..XD..that time wooosheehhh I can spent like RM50 bucks one time on arcade man..more like ID( Initial D Arcade Stage V2 & V3-now V4 out but I'm retired) I WAS a so called 'professional' driver that time wakaka..me and my friend were the only gal training long term, we can kick guy asses many times :).they even have teams and competitions around msia you know O_o cool ehs?we go to arcades in whole of KL that have ID..no kidding..most la..the arcade people and counter people even know us in our usual hangout.. but that was so nooongg ago..past..now all my skills gone d..quited for errmm 2 -3 years?geting old ..my time record is stil on the webby somewhere..i'm an evo driver :p..hahahaha..
.........................
why am I off topic again -_-''..
anyways yeahs I continue blog later..about how the bloody lotus cut my finger..going out now LOLLLLLLLL!!

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, December 09, 2008
11:21 PM

thesis defense cause materialism?

I don't know what to say because I'm too tired to say anything..
I slept 2 hours only...

Rehearse till 6am..
It went well la :D
worry for nothing before that..was extremely nervous and many butterflies in my stomach..
It is over finally..
everything..

Oh..
and I went shopping a bit XD..not intended too but end up doing that..

It made me awake somehow for a while :(..
and I was dead tired when I got home..
I bought a pretty purple turtleneck..
I knew I just had to get it..

It is so me!
and so perfect!
fitting!!
with the influence of a little devil beside me :(
and I finally bought it...
no discount somemore ..
ZARA...dammit..!
and no I'm not rich..

I rationalize myself with that'll it be for CNY shopping and I'll buy lesser clothes..
Feeling guilty now..
I shouldn't had got it , I'm saving up money I thought!?
There goes the money I've been saving up T_T..sobs..

well at least I didn't get that stripes one which will cost me more right!??!
The stripes one look better on me though!!!
Love their trenchcoats and winter clothings though, have always love them!!and their boots!!
Topshop and Guess trenchcoats are not bad also!
Laces and frills are in this season..
They are everywhere..but somehow rather I hate it..
It's just too over girly to me..!they even have lacey trenchcoats and jackets..to me, it only spoil the whole entire design man..
WTH......
I can't believe I'm actually talking about clothes..
It must be the stress of the whole thesis..-_-"
This is not me talking...

Oh ya, that day bro ask me is there anything I want to buy (yesh, suddenly so good right :/..fishy!)..it turns out it was Black Friday in US..It is a day after thanksgiving where there will be mega MAJOR sales on the day itself where all the retailers gain a profit, for the financial slang, goes into the 'black"..O_o''..that why they name it Black Friday. For example an armani exchange blazer original price $120 can become $31++...[source taken from dawn's blog]..

U TELL ME U TELL ME IS THIS FAIR!!!!?!?!how come we don't have it here!!??!!and ppl actually get stamped to death by the crowd see this :

http://www.dailystab.com/three-deatghs-reported-on-black-friday/

Get stampede at wal-mart -.- wth..LOL..!!!

everywhere is sales..!!SALESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!GRAB ARHH GRAB ARH!!!

it's a big big big beter than malaysia mega sales!!even for branded items like those outlet la ..Banana Republic, Burberry, Chanel, Coach, Dolce & Gabbana, Fendi, Gap, Giorgio Armani, Gucci, J.Crew, Jimmy Choo, Lacoste, Neiman Marcus, Polo Ralph Lauren, Prada, Saks Fifth Avenue, Tod's, Tory Burch, Zegna and more. [source taken from dawn's blog again]
U TELL ME IS THIS FAIR!!!!!arghhhhhh!why don't we have Black Friday or Black Thursday or Wednesday or wadever here :(..I like Gap's sweater and burberry trenchcoat!!!!!!!ISH!!!!GRRR!!!
Though I'm not into branded stuff but the heart still itch when you see those =.=~..
And things are cheaper for their local brand there la O_o"..seriously when I went over there for bro graduation that time, bought a Guess t-shirt at a much cheaper price. And bro always bring back clothes and stuff when he comes back..hehehe. :p Yesh I got some of Guess t-shirts and a small Coach pouch/wallet stock inside my wardrobe...free from bro :D LOL!!!!he gave aunts and mom some too that time..some Fendi and Gucci stuff were lying around too I think but it was not to be touch and it's for his business :(..He sells those branded handbags as side income lar..@_@ that explain the bags..he kept one limited edition i think handbag here..when mom ask him last time whether she can use it, he say don't touch it, it's for his collection purposes O_o'' I wonder what he wants to do with it..Anyway, for Black Friday, I told him to get me and external hard disk if possible -.- of all things.. since I search online and found nothing much, he say good deal only buy -.- fussy..I seach a few thing for dad also lar, but he say not much discount or not worth he won't buy..so I end up with the external hard disk..he say he'll try to get the 1TB if posisible @_@..1TB..yesh!they sell 1 TERABYTE over there!BIGGER THAN GB!!!!OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But...don't be too happy first..until now no news..Black Friday over..and he's busy...don't think he got it, u know how bros are like la..unreliable!!!cih!!!I should have just ask him to get me that bloody cute ankle boots I saw online!!!!I wanted a boots so much and I hunted for one so nong T_T They either don't have my size or they are no nice or too expensive..and the cute ankle boots I saw online was only $39.90 !!!!!!!!!!Seriously should just ask him to get me that pair of boots :(....

What happen to me =.= gosh!!I got bitten by the materialism bug..maybe cause of few friends were presenting on the topic of materialism today :p?

or it might be the stress cause by the whole thesis thingy -_-'...a way to relieve stress is to indulge in materialism =X? LOL!!!!

Tired...=.=! SLeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepppppppppppp!!!

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