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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
10:44 PM
depressed..
seelah..i'm dunno why i'm fucking depressed right now....dammit....i'm really a sad case..seelah...he change no?not yet confirm lah..but still..seelah..he won't wanna tell me one..rather msg yeez than me...it's like telling her equals to telling me already..and i was fine before yesterday and know for some really strange reason..i feel uneasy..worry...depresed..wtf is wrong with me???this is sad man!!i'm a hopeless sad case!!i don't have mood to do anything...i even lose interest in gb..OMG!!i can lose my acc..it's MY ACCOUNT dunno how many times in a row without even caring...and still play but without concentrating...feeling really uneasy..more like depressed??can't get it off my mind...fuk!!i need to go out.....to watch a movie..or something..i can't stop flooding......help...it's really a torture...pain....help..........this is fucking hell depressing!!!!!!! I really want to get you out of my mind..get rid of you....i keep telling myself i really have to stop being this way...i can't believe that i can fall for u so deep...fuck u!damn!damn!i wanna let go...but i keep going back to the same spot over and over again...no matter how many times..how hard i tried...i don't want to care anymore...i really don't..but i do...hahaha..i'm going mad..and do you know the worst part..hahah..i saw someone that look like you in my college...and guess what??hahahha...same program...fucking hell...reminds me of you everytime i sees him..(but of course u look better than him n ur hair style is nicer..wtf am i saying?)and that isn't the worst part..this look-alike got a gf...and they are always together..hahaha..makes me reminds me of you and me if we were still together..now i can't even have my peace anymore in school...or in the bus(that couple always take the bus)....is this to torture me?oh..and the worst part is yet to come..this look-alike speaks fluent english,a big difference from you but this reminds me more of you..i keep thinking really it's partially my fault........regret...really regret...my mistake...makes me think back of my mistakes...again and again..if i didn't..probably it won't lower you fucking hell low self esteem..well...this is really torture..y do someone like u have to appear and reminds me of you?is he sent to torture me? hahaha...i dunno what to do anymore..i misess you badly...hahahha...i can't stop..do u know?u dunno...you won't know...i dunno..dunno..ahahhaha...going mad...hahahah..probably will be fine again 2morow...yea..i always do..even if not..i life still have to go on..hope there's some news bout you soon..i doubt that..oh yea 2morow i get to see ur look alike again..is this just great or what?hahaha..make me misses u even more..damn!!.i'm an idiot..a real idiot!!stupid idiot me..i know but i can't do anything to change it..can't control..idiot!
the heavy rain outside now.. is like my mood.. the never ending.. flow of water.. flowing endlessly.. but it will still stop.. if not what will happen? flood everyone? and scare them away.. people run away trying to avoid heavy rain anyway.. or flood everywhere? and destroy every single thing..in a big flood..? that can't happen..can it? so it will stop... no matter how heavy.. but it will not end.. it will still rain again.. again and again.. and where will you be? hahahhaha......... you are sleeping, perhaps? so you never knew it rain all along.. when you wake up.. all you see is the sunny weather.. so you never know.. you will never know.. how much is hidden behind that sunny weather.. as all you can see is.. the dry ground.. and a sun hanging above shining brightly.. looking at the rain.. drops by drops.. of water.. each containing a sadness.. a pain.. that only the rain itself knows.. will i ever understand the rain?
takeMEbytheHAND.
Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
takeMEsomewhereNEW.
::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
HANDinHAND.
#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
