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Thursday, August 04, 2005
10:39 PM
Lose weight!!omg..skeleton!!
more and more ppl have been saying i lose weight..damn..and nad say today she really sees it when she saw me walking in front..cause normally she don't really look at me since i'm always like so near her..but she say today she saw me from far..and i look relly terrible..oh damn..really lose weight..realyl like aneroxia d...skeleton..and jiun also say me lose weight and ppl also..help.!!i dun want to be any skinnier..i eat like normal..sleep..well not really normal..but still last time i dun see myself like that..and so it' must be WORK..nad told me..last time i dun work,so not that bad..sleep late also not that bad..not working..i have like no rest..work then school..work then school..even rest day(sat & sun) gotta do assignment also..plus this new program isn't helping much..with 10 times the workload..HELL!i feel so tired everyday..and i think job staisfaction is back to low now..on wed i don't even have the fucking mood to work..work like shit..i really cannot cope anymore..i feel like quitting really..seriously..even i like the job but still..i mean MY JOB DOESN'T INCLUDE BABYSITTING FOR A BUNCH OF STUPID IDIOT KIDS @ SPOIL BRATS WHO IS BECOMING NAUGHTIER DAY BY DAY!I'M NOT A FUCKING BABYSITTER!FUCK OFF!i know i'm good at babysitting..i mean i can handle kids..enjoy it..yea..but DAY AFTER DAY THE SAME THING...and one fucking hell 6 years old is so fucking rude..scolded me..u think i'm a maid or what??!WTF!!if i dun care of losing this job..i'll just FUCK UR ASS MAN,KIDDO!U WATCH UR MOUTH!!think u r so great..fuck off..i've seen life 13 years further than u!KNOW MORE CURSE OR SWEARING THAN U EVER KNOW!ALL THESE RICH SPOILED BRATS!!I MEAN I'VE ALREADY BEEN SO STRESS OUT AND TIRED OVER MY ASSSIGNMENTS IN COLLEGE I DUN HAVE ANYMORE ENERGY FOR THESE KIDS..THAT'S WHY I BECOMING DREADED TO WORK EACH DAY...if i'm not studying,holiday.. nevermind..but now??I'M NOT A FUCKING HELL BABYSITTER OK??I WANT AN OFFICE JOB ONLY!!!!DAMN!!LIKE I'M NOT TIRED ENOUGH??!I EVEN LOSE HELL LOT OF WEIGHT!!I FEEL TERRIBLE!!I REALLY FEEL LIKE SLAPPING THEM OFF AND TELL THEM U BETTER SIT DOWN AND BE A GOOD KID AND SHUT THE HELL UP,LIKE I DUN HAVE ENOUGH STRESS..AND JUST FUCK THE JOB..HAHAHAH..that would be nice..that teach them a lesson..patience??i'm not learning to be a mother...some kids are ok..but still there alre always the spoiled brats among them...FUCK HELL,like i dun have enough to deal with..nononono..NO MORE..I'M NOT GOING TO WORK THREE DAYS..NEXT SEM TWO DAYS!!AND NO MORE FULL DAY!!I HAVE A FUCKING HELL PACKED TIMETABLE NEXT SEM..cause it's a short sem...one week dunno how many hours.. ohh...by the way...today got back our social mid terms..=.="..surprisingly i got quite high..yay..was really happy...got 86%...^.^..i think i'm the highest in class..*sigh*..but mid terms only take up how many percent of the entire course..but neway was happy..hahhaha..take that the power of ex-adpian..wahahhaha..must thank winnee...all her teaching last time..anyway this is my =.="second time studying social psych also..lol..wahahah..beaten that nyonya nerd (82%) who read the entire textbook and realyl by the book type who follows every single rules and that's y lah nad got lower marks for her group obeservation..and think she's clever..and i nvr did much study..i think i study last minute..=.="..cannot finished also..nad got 64..jiun got 71 i think..syamim all got 50++..got quite a lot failed..got 40 something..and ah tong got 28..=.="..he look so sad..he's so blur about everything..oh well...happy =)..my essay was a whole lot of crap about social identity theory..hahha..didn't expect that..but my MCQ help..got 2 wrong only..^.^v...anyway not going to get that kind of marks ever again..since social psych section finished d..it's health psych section now..*sigh*..never realyl learn b4 except a bit in gen psych last time..and research methods in ms.w class..sure la won't get high marks..knowing her questions and her expectation.. anyway was really happy=)...i feel right at home now..found out *phew*..at least a lot of them are not really straight A student kind..all like 60 something..me and nad also..=)..we are the B or C student category..except got a few student like nyonya,jumping chatterbox,kancheung checker....is potential A student lah..but we still won't know yet..must see the whole course mark..and plus they have so much more workload than me and nad..hahaha..=p..jiun say she nvr gonna take 4 subjects anymore..she rather finished this course extra one more year than finished it faster and get shit results...she lose weight too..=p..anyway had a happy time in class with her today..joke a lot and talk a lot also..=)..and feel happy also cause got one activity dr.goh ask us to write down what we did b4 that i think..she wrote "feel lonely until met nadia and jeannie"..hehehe=)..she was with other ppl also before that..that's mean we are fun to be with..wahahah..we found someone in this program finally that we can at least have some fun with..^.^..yea.!at least not that boring anymore...and today a lot of writing-down activities in calss we wrote stupid and funny stuff and laugh bout it...lazy to describe here...=.="..but still miss adp..hahaha..and adp people miss us..ah bin told us he misses us that day..talk to him online..mee fen also told us earlier she misses us..='(...lol..our fun is missed..*sigh*...me and nad..*sigh*..two as crazy as each other..that's why we had double the fun..or maybe we are just kids who never grow up?hahaha..think back..it's really funny and how fate brought us two together..two person who is so really different from appearance to even age..not even anything common from the outside..but then again we are alike in many ways from the inside..it's funny and weird..i would never in my life think that i would become close friends with a person like her..hahahaz..but then again she's exceptional case..funny with her narcisstic way..hahah..she's just funny...a kid who never grows up..=p..i think that's what make us so alike?btw..after her addiction to pacman,brick game..now her newest addiction is galaxian..=.=""..she play until 3 o'clock last night..hahaha..i can't believe that..she like those old old games...funny la..! ohh..and last night jiun show me the doll she wanted to buy..look so nice and realistic..she was never into dolls..and me too..until i saw that..it's so nice and realistic..i didn't know they could make it until like that..i like the hair and the eyes..the eyes especially..so nice and real..the clothes also nice..and that doll..el blue sapphire..comes in two colours of hair..black and blond..and comes with the makeup also..so niceeee!!but unfortunately.when she woke up at 8 something to buy online the time..it's sold out already..=.="..lol..her mood was totally spoiled..and she keep refreshing until 9am thinking that must be some error or the thing is not on sale yet and finally accept the fact that it is memang sold out..so expensive somemore..US$1,500.00.but so nice..i want also..some dolls are also really nice..if i had the money surely wanna buy also..check the el blue sapphire dollhere ..so nice right? all from korea..the dolls..so realistic..i love the eyes..@.@.. *sigh*..back to work..lab report due soon..asch's conformity experiment we did.....=.="..damn asch..because of him got extra work..and can't find much bout replication of research in proquest!!! remind me y do i have to pay 30 bucks each sem for this??!!all old old research dun have...!!!1980s especially dun have..damn!have to find related stuff then..but still not easy to find..hell!dunno spend how many hours on proquest again!!and we have a 3 hour replacement class in the morning lab report is due plus winne's observation dueing the same day and poster review also...and that day class will be from 9-6..=.="..the replacement class..=.="..the night before surely no need to sleep already..somemore have to go school from 9-6..=.=!!!this is hell man..if dun go cannot..cause dr.goh is going to explain the details for our coming stress essay which will due the following week which we will have winnee's exams ....=.="....(learning bout stress now in health psych)..we are already stress now..we don't need another stressor!!no time...help!!
p.s. hardly have any time for myself..>.<..lesser gb..no time..tired..*sigh*..misses him so much..wanna see him..but i don't even have the time!!omg...all i know is college...home..go work..home..assignment..college..work..home..assignment..then back to college..work..home..assignments..i feel so dead!!and lifeless..study study study..work work work..no rest no play..sick and tired!!-miss ya-
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#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
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#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
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