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Friday, September 16, 2005
11:55 PM
him..again??!i my as well dedicate my whole blog to him..*sigh*...>.<
lol...is always bout him isn't it?hahhaa.haih..what to do?you tell me.i really dunno what to do anymore,seriously i really don't..just letting things as it is..sigh..really..wtf am i doing?*shrugs*...haih... i know it's bad to take leave again..but i need a break!!=p...i feel so lifeless working and working.....!it's my holiday >.<..or am i just pure lazy?hahahha..so went to ts loh ..oh mr.pat..erm..=.="..yea..he's my new pet bro...=.="..he kinda ask us to join his ex for lunch...hmmm..he seems to want yeez to come along too..even willing to belanja..but dunno is talk only lah!dun see him giving back!!!=/..my money gone man...went to kim gary..b4 that he told me low yat plaza RM 10 set lunch..hahaha..very funny!!!in the end o.O"....omg..dunno how much $$$$$ gone d just for that lunch..=/..well the food was nice though..full.. then later after lunch went back up loh...wasn't really expecting to see him on today..but he appear..was glad that he appear lah..it's been 2 weeks since i last saw him..when he come i didn't see..i was busy paying back mr.pat's money....was faqcing mr.pat..so can't see whoever that came..but yeez was facing me so she saw and told me =.="..so loud somemore..idiot..mr.pat can hear la!!!that donkey go and say so loud somemore..wat "ur man is here..happy lah...bla bla."damn man..mr pat was so close to us =.="..dunno he can hear or not...=/..but when i know he's here..omg..totally can't concentrate on the calculation d,mr. pat no change..fuk man..all my so call cognitive processes just got disrupted..psych??hahahha.....=.="..my brain just stop functioning for some strange reason..why is it always like that..wasn't listening to a word mr.pat saying..was just taking his money and putting his money back inside his wallet then take again then put back again..mr.pat look at me weirdly =.="..hahha..wonder what must i be doing.haih..but after a while my brain is back to normal again..damn!wtf is wrong with me??i can't always be like that!!!wtf? haih..he looks tired..=.="..probably come after school gua..haih..no exams meh?trials??we are really back to talking terms d..that day ask him play soul calibur for us..never play pula..dun have our password gua..>.<..he knows my password d..!fuck man!at first he ask our acc one..then he ask my one too..he ask yeez one..then yeez ask him to ask me..damn..then i was kinda blur also that time dunno what's happening..so i ask him "huh?"..he like zha dou..he ask me didn't i lsiten to what he say just now..=.="..then he ask again loh..but how u want me to say it out..ur bday date leh.!!so i said ask yeez..and then walk away..i umm..feeling embarassing d..i feel my face becoming hot d..no!!i do not blush!!!nononono..!!!=.="..but in the end he knows also la..>.<" i dunno what he will think!damn!!hope he don't realize it got something to do with him..>.<..haih..dunno la..same old thing again...i saw him peeking..he saw too i think??dunno la!!!haihz..wtf man..he came and stand close to me also..haihz..oh..and when i was playing our car..was just playing for fun..dunno wat map d..yeez dunno say wat i very teruk or wat..normal..hahaha.>.<.my face where got so easily blush one>.<...yikes..but yeez say i do blush one =.="...damn man..but i was kinda happy la..that he back me up..although it's really nothing..but i dunno la..just feel happy?=)..haih..then later when yeez playing our car..i took a chair and sat down beside her..then he came and stand behind me..each of his hand putting on the seat support on the machine yeez was playing and the machine next to her..so i was kinda blocked inside >.<..didn't dare to get up..just sit there..i actually wanted to go toilet d..=.=..he umm..came quite close to me..when i kinda lean back a bit..i can feel his shirt????=.="""..damn!is that his shirt or his body!!!=.="..but only a short while...i quickly lean back to the front..scared kena again >.<..but he came kinda close..=.="..cause when i look up to the right to look at mr pat..i saw his arm..was just above my head..his hands was on the seat support..=.="..oh..and he umm..touch my hair..=/..itchy hand..purposely want..wanna tease me or wat i dunno..do twice somemore..somemore i thought is mr.pat do one..look at mr.pat start warning him and kinda scolding him but in a joking way la..mr.pat say it's not him and give me me the "difitnah look" and say it's "he" do one..."he" was busy laughing there..hahhaa..i didn't believe mr.pat loh but the third time when i look back to mr.pat again (realize i haven't finish scolding/warning him..my reaction is slow one..hahha..few seconds only realize i never finsh my sentences)..then i saw his hand like was halfway reaching out towards my hair again and quickly keep it..trying to hide it..but too late d..from the corner of my eyes i saw his hands was moving d..then mr.pat say "see..she saw d.."then i know it's not mr.pat doing one..but i pretend i dunno and still "fitnah" mr.pat instead..>.<..hahhaha..if not u want me how to scold him worr..wonder why he wanna do that?touch my hair for what?>.<..nothing to touch also la..haih..then mr.pat hold my entire head and shake it and say this is the way i do one not those one...he and mr.pat there laughing..then later when i lean over to the left to see yeez entering her ranking number in the phone the time..his hand was on the seat support ..i think i went to close d..so my head touches his hand =.="....his hand didn't move away..=.="....=.="..dunno la..dunno..we kinda came in contact a lot of times today..wtf man!later when mr.pat was fooling around with the chair the time also..i nearly fall one him..phew.didn't la..but he sat on my chair =.="..cause that time was busy stranggling mr.pat..but he gave back me la when i come back..after i'm done stepping on mr.pat's shoes..wahahaha.he stand up and let me sit back loh...haih...later when yeez still busy playing..he ask for my version 3 japanese version card..gave him loh and one buck also..he ask about my eng version 3 also..i say i dun wanna to work d the car..then he ask la..talk a bit loh..then i remember yeez got eng v3...so i say wait i go and ask yeez..but he say no need..=.="..i thought u want?or izzit u want my card only not other ppl or wat?haih..dunno la..dunno..really dunno..but i asked yeez anyway,she didn't want either...haihz..dunno..oh and today when i drive yeez V3 car..happo outbound..he was there to see..haihz..i want him to see i got improve la..but drove quite badly ..damn especially the nearending part..lose control..hard to control..bang like hell..man..so ugly...haihz..cannot really concentrate also with him sitting beside the next maching there..=.="..i did try my very best d..but when i play V2..my oubound time 2.20..consider my best la..and he was beside also..hope he saw my time..look i improve dei..look at me..i'm not as shit as last time..i want him to know i improve..but everytime he will either not be there to see me play or when he is there,i will somehow play badly..fuck man!!oh..and i got the ID card mr.pat dun wanna use d..i'm gonna use it to train,to battle with ppl..to gain more battle experience..no need to scare percentage go down or level down..can just battle withouht worries unlike our shared dc..(i can only battle with really really noob ppl)..this one it's a kinda abandoned car..so i can just train..but it's really slow..and the points??!wtf man!mr. pat go and play four course until no points d..no wonder the car so slow la!did a few battling with yeez..nice la the feeling of battling..but was somehow different when i drive this car..i'm too use to our shared dc d..this one option D somemore..it felt different..drove a bit like shitty...especially outbound..dunno y..lost control..=.="..it was a boost off match also like that ..it felt light..hmmm..i don't really know how to control this car yet..i still prefer my shared dc more..='(..oh..and when i was battling with yeez the time..iro map..after "i was stuck at the jumping pins there the time and had to make a u-turn..yeez was already in front d..damn stupid mistake!damn me..and then he appear..fuck hell..appear behind me..damn man..thought he went back d..cannot drive d..=.="..and he will think i very bad..cause yeez was already so far in front..nono..it's mistake....i improve d..y didn't u come b4 that??y everytime i drive badly d then u come..i really improve d la...can u see or not..?haihz......anyway i no need to drive d..he was there d..lost concentration..damn!wtf man!then later he say he wanna play...he was sitting there d..but i told him la i need to train..yeez also say..so he let me play loh..he help me choose the map =.="..he help me choose outbound..i dun wanna play outbound one ='(..but nvm la..since he chose d... then he went over to yeez side..lucky also..at least can concentrate more..this time my ending was ok..i let go very early knowing the boost is there..if not surely bang d..but the part behind bang d =.="...the distance with yeez then can see further d..oh and i'm trying the part going up the hill using 5th gear..but i didn't manage to do it..hha.bang..=.="..what is wrong with me..battling the time wann try new things..akagi also..try 5th gear..bang la..wtf man?should use back safe way right?but no..itchy hand somehow..battling the time wanna try new things..the usui clockwise battle also..i wanna try to turn 5th gear in the sharp corner (normally i go back to 4th gear then only faster go back to 5th gear)WTF is wrong with me??battling only wanna try new things!!!!u tell me is this itchy hand or wat???ITCHY HAND!i can't help it la.!!dammn!this is bad!! haih..but glad that he appear today la..happy la..haih...sad case man me..sad case..haihz..missing him again..oh he bought back a phone d..now can msg him d..haihz..hopeless!!
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#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
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#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
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#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
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