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Thursday, June 23, 2005
10:29 PM
crazy me..!!you!!
was tired today..and didn't really slept well the night before..had a dream again..bout him..omg..what's wrong with me?too long never see d izzit?haihz... can't believe i can miss a person that badly..wtf is wrong with me?mentally drained....why are you back to haunting me again?invading my mind again...*sigh*....i thought i was back..??all i need now is my studies..studies..arghh!!this is fucking depressing...who am i kidding?feel like fucking everything up and go to the island!!!fuck my studies!!fuck my work!!fuck my life!fuck him!just fuck everything... I'm dying...................................am i?well..still hanging alive though....oh and class was depressing too..me and nad going to die sial...in that class..I MISS ADP!!!u know or not..all nerds in my class!!today i finally realise..sial...all fucking study like hell and i can't believe everyone even that "so-called" bitches listen to that fucked up lembu lembik..and even participate askingquestions...all really pay attention..i dunno how they can stay in a class like that...and all really serious in their studies one...and do you know not more than 1 person is absent in class??and it's not only 1 class..all the classes!!and do you none of them "ponteng" class??last time adp...after they sign names..u can see ppl started to leave and a lot will be leaving after the break time..but this one...OMG..they are even so damn punctual and come back for their break time in really accurately 10 minutes?!?!!!and the class start already also..and do you know even it's boring also nobody SLEEP??can u believe that i'm the only one sleeping in class??and nobody even bother to look at me as they were too busy concentrating in class..nad also wanna sleep but she can tahan one..last time also same lah..i always ask her to pinch me to keep me awake..but she also say..all damn serious one..all potential A student..OMG!!!!and can't even joke and kutuk lecturer all..i miss adp..and the people...at least last time..got mee fen,ah bin and girls also...even azral also ok..even biadawak also..and a lot more..can joke all and really laugh...and each class surely got naughty students or funny one..this program??!!!!they are nice ppl lah..but TOO SERIOUS LAH!!!!nerds sial..........all like goody two shoe type....nad say so....mee fen also misses us...haih..we use to have so much fun in class..and entertaining in a way..but now...haih..all really not our type sial..nad say...and all so good...all A students...feel pressure..and start to panic d..haven't even fucking study yet..what if we are the only worse one in class??all so good??sekali all get A's then only us get B's...dei!!it's still very bad lah!!cannot stand lah..we are suffocating in here..lucky still have each other..but still not that much fun already..only 2 of us..(but today laugh like hell when me make new names for ppl..there's so many weird ppl in our this program sial,laugh until stomache pain..haih..if only the others were here..we can share..miss them the adp people..)and can u believe got one student actually keep a newspapaer cutting of 2003 of some old war thingy..??omg??who keep a newspaper cutting on old war for so long???and one laig worse..read the whole book already???maybe got more but we dunno..??u tell me all this is "A" student or not?dei..can't even skip classes..cause no one doing it.. and we will be the only one..and surely everyone know since we have only round 60 of us..=(...miss the flexible life we used to have in adp..and the people...*sigh*..we did try turning into nerds but keep failing...somehow we can't sit still for hours and study sial..maybe the night before exams can lah?we always have time for other stuff but no time for studies...what's wrong with us ah?haih..nad also say..we are just lazy lah...but we know we can do it if we really want to..even possible to get an "A"..hahahha..but we just can't be bother....dei..it doesn't suit us lah...i will die without entertainment..!!at least plz lah...don't only talk bout studies and work..hey ppl..enjoy life..don't be so serious..life is short....it's not all about study study and study..u spent half ur lifetime studying,another half working, then ur life is gone..so when's the time for play?u don't enjoy now,when will you?...hey,ppl..don't be so serious...what's wrong with u all??all maybe it's something wrong with us?we don't suits here?? I lost my notebook..no more roach page,pari page,nerd page,circus elephant page,...all gone!!all our creation!!!!and we just started on staff in our college page..all gone!!i want back my nerd page lah and roach page..!!pari page also nice..and ce page!!haih..want to start drawing and writing all over again also susah..forget already...noooooooooooooooo...why did i lost my notebook??somemore i like the "mortein knockdown" in roach page..coloured in red somemore...so nice..and all the things inside the page..haih..want to do again also hard..and it take time to do even one page..somemore there's so many page more waiting for us to do..me and nad theory page,racoon page for her and rodent page for me...now takkan want to start all over again?..our creation all gone....sad... oh..yesterday idiot roach called and play a fool on us..say he's back in malaysia all..idiot!!call twice somemore..really sound like it..mana tau finally found out he's still in australia!!wastemy money msg him so many times...still don't wanna tell the truth..suddenly say he;s in australia,suddenly say no actually in malaysia..then again say i australia..then..etc..idiot!!so i msg shaz and ask...and finally found out that donkey is still in australia..coming back only next month..make us happy for nothing..ceh..wanna fool us somemore...wait till u come back roach,u gonna get it from us!!hahahha...miss the old times..where we had lotsa fun..the 3R's + shaz..heh...and so long never hear roach's bitching d..hahaha..come back surely bitch like hell and R2 also..hahaha..so long no driving d also....and nad starting to miss mcd already..so long never eat mcd and go "jungle" d..since roach left...no time also..break in between classes is short..1 hour,where got enough? haih..oklah..suppose to at least start doing my donkey assignments one..no mood dei..dueing on thursday..only done one day work..still got 4 days left and writing and typing to do...last minute again??haih...missing a person that badly...this is really fucking depressing....well..maybe it's just the time to get depressed??damn...so many feelings..worry?sad?pain?sick?stress?tired?missing?haih..i think i'm having bipolar depression again??can be laughing so damn happy at one moment and the next moment can be in tears and all..wtf?this is sadistic??argggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!my cure=him?really wonder how is he doing??omg...........wtf is wrong with me???i guess it must be all the stress...maybe..haih..missing...when will you appear?really miss ya... mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad mad crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy crazy you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you you miss you you you you you you you miss you you you you you you you miss you you you you you you you you you you you miss you you you you you you you you you miss you you you you you you you you you why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why argggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
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Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
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::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
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#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
