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Sunday, August 07, 2005
12:40 AM
wordless..you..
well..i dunno what to say.shouldn't go..but went in the end...why do i always never listen?well..for the sake of someone say will help me..haih..actually good also in a way i went?got to see him...and got some news from him...but..i really dunno anymore..how can i still feel the same?haih...he look a bit different..his hair i think...as usual stuff happen..and i dun wanna go into details..too tired..i just can't think right now...well..get to see his hp today..>.<..i know it's an invasion of privacy but..haih...he got new number again...see lah..will msg yeez but not me..forever...scared to talk to me like that...well at least i did talk to him today in away..as usual i take the iniative..was more like joking la..and only when yeez is there...i'm really tired to have to pretend already....i'm really sicked of all this..y can't u just talk to me like old times??or treat me like old times??fucker!!can't u treat me like friends like old times??i dunno what is wrong with me..i can't really think properly..i didn't really bother to peek at him that much today also..maybe i'm just too tired..but quite a lot of times he came and stand beside me..and my mind was blank..fucking hell.. i wanted to talk to him one..but somehow i dunno y i can't think of anything..wtf is this???maybe he same?that's y dun want to talk to me?duno what to talk also..haih...oh..when he play shooting game..i peek over..i realize he got one nice gaya there..a bit "yau yeng"..fuck!what am i thinking bout this?oh..he got a christian name or nickname...alex..dei!=.="..dun really suits him..hahha..didn't know he even got such name..omg.. i dunno really..i was fine..until i saw him..misses him a lot..damn...now i fell worse..misses more..worry for nothing?hell..why does it still hurt so much to see you?i dunno..i thought i'm already letting u go bit by bit??i guess not..it still hurt..it still does...i dunno y..i still misses u...stuff are left hanging that's y..i really wanna talk things over with u..we really didn't finish our stuff..if not wtf are u treating me like this?u call this being friends?stop giving me signs that are not suppose to be...oh man!!is there really no hope left?if really..what is this??what are u acting like this?i need answers..not more questions.oh man..hell..HELL..why did i do that?why did u do that?why do i feel like that?why do u act like that?why did u say that?y did i said that?why u wanna do that?what are u thinking now?what u want?what am i thinking?what i want?why u treat me like that?what happen?what is happening?why is is still like that?why do u mind?why did i did that?i wanna cry...i really do..i already did..there's no tears..have u been so painful and so sad..that no tears came out?..hahaha..i'm at the brink of insanity..it hurts..i misses you..i really do..i'm worry..i'm rally tired..i dun wanna to wear this mask anymore..to keep all the things inside..u think it's easy to be all happy when talking to u..damn..but i still try to make our friendship going..can't u act more normal towards me?oh damn..hell..hahahha.. can' t stop thinking..i can't do work..stp replaying...get it off..y can't my feelings just died away..fade away..?don't feelings fade with ttime passes??i don't see any of that!!wtf is time doing!!washes all this away..wash it all away!!fade away!!kill it!!!i don't want this feeling..kill it!!hahha..dun think it's possible..why did i make that mistake?regret..regret..regret..regret..the pain all comes from this regrets...hahaha..isn't that fun?wish can turn back time..i won't make the same mistake...oh damn...hahaha..fuk this post..this is a crap post..dun bother!!love u alwiz?miss u alwiz?hahahi'm not thinking straight..fuk this post!!fuck u!and fuck me!hahahhaa....
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Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
takeMEsomewhereNEW.
::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
HANDinHAND.
#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
