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Tuesday, February 08, 2005
11:50 PM
Day 21-26
Haven't been updating lately..haven't been that well lately and kinda busy..
Day21-Thursday Nothing much...another fucked up day...didn't have enough sleep due to last minute doing assignment...did the usual stuff..went to school..wasn't myself..today nad dropped one of the psych subject since the class and the teacher is fucked up..she say she don't want to get an "F" and pull down her ccgpa so she rather drop..leaving me alone in that fucked up class which I really don't know what am I doing there since I don't really need that subject..I had to take it to fulfill my minimum 4 subject requirement and the GENERAL@hiltler at home ask me don't take too much other electives so I had to take psych subject..whatever..now I couldn't even dropp it since "Hitler" surely wouldn' allowed it.Just hope I can managed through this class...it's hard leh..and I have no interest in how the information is processed in the brain and which past of the brain do this and that!!by the way it's cognitive and biological psych...talking about the brains mostly..blah..blah..boring..and hard..lots of memorizing..like another bio..but worst!*sigh*...was very frusfrated...vent my frusfration and anger or whatever u want to call it towards nads and rosh..I guess it's too much already....what's wrong with me..
Day 22-Friday My off day today...went to you know where again...saw you know who again...he skipped school again!!how can he skipped school every friday??somemore this year is a very important year for him..SPM exams leh this year...don't know how he's gonna managed..haih..and why do I fucking care?none of my business right?somehow I still do...hopeless lah me...wasn't really myself again..yes..still haven't been able to sleep well lately..seems to have more problems..I guess it's all the problems,one after another..I really cannot stand living in this house already...it's really hard.....I nearly lost my wallet today and ah loong,a friend kinda play a joke on me..he kept it actually..and i thought it was lost..really scared man cuz the GENERAL surely will kick me out of college if I lost my wallet..it's my LAST chance..dei! I asked for it but he kept denying it and everyone also so I got fed up and I walk out and left the arcade..hit the wall with my hand on the way out..I was so scared,it's my last chance and I don't know what to do..I really don't..I broke down..found a quiet spot to weep...I thought I was ok after a while..so I went out from my hiding spot..and I saw yeez and loong out there..I was told later that loong went all the way to 3,4,5, few floors to find me..and even wanted to go find me at 1st floor..sorry..he was really sorry for what he did..I can't think that time so I never give much thought about it..I kinda argued with yeez and I left to for my quiet hiding spot again as I was bout to break down again,I don't want ppl to see me cried that's y I always leave whenever I fee like crying..but this time they followed me..too late,they saw where I went..I shouted at them to ask them not to followed me..but I was already sitting on the steps,heads on my knees half crying..they came over and console me,kinda..I started talking to yeez..talking n crying..talking..loong went to took tissues for us..he' really nice..and he felt really sorry for what he did..heard from yeez later he even carve a sorry msg on the wall on that place...felt better after that...I'm sorry that loong have to run so many floors to find me..he was sweating somemore...he's really nice,even help me to wipe my tears kinda..took out my specs..wanted to take him as my pet brother..actually have that thought for quite some time already..got one time also he did the same thing,took out my specs and all when i cry...he's really a caring and nice person..that's why I've been wanting to take him as my pet brother..another reason also is because he's very cute and chubby..look like 9 years old..but in actual fact he's 14 already...hahaha...he act like a 9 years old sometimes too...funny dei...
got good news today also..rosh called up and told us that he's not leaving on monday but instead on wednesday..since he wanted to fly off together with another friend..
Day 23-Saturday went to ts again...yes..u will think after yesterday,go agaiN?hey i lead an arcade life ok?it's one of my hobby....part of it..ya..saw him again..i always do..he's wearing that white woolly shirt( that i like) again and jeans..and his hair gel...haih.....still not really in talking terms though...ane at one point he got really angry when our car(yeez an me have a share car)lost..ah loong help us played against someone else i think..that fellow challenged us i think...he was playing beside also on a free round since he won the battle then he straight away forced quit his game,he's playing the characters by the way and straigh away come to our side..and help us challenged the fellow back...so angry somemore...for what?don't know....is it because ah loong lost at the last minute,near the ending...or is it because he knows that fellow...or is it because it's our car,part of the car is mine..that's y he so angry?haih...for what give myself false hope again..thinking he so angry because of me since that's kinda my car also....haih..seelah..i'm really a hopeless case,right?anyway...we all went over to daytona while he was battling...yeez said she don't trust him anymore since his performance these day bad already..don't know why become bad already..sometimes bad sometimes good...dangerous...haih...while he finished battling the match..he caught me looking at him again from the daytona side..shit man!i think he was finding for us...and then he look up..and why does he have to look at the daytona side..he caught me looking at him..kinda anyway..since we kinda look at each other for a short while only..i quickly look away and try concentrating on seeing yeez playing daytona..well it's not the first time anyway..happen lots of time already the past few weeks...the whole day also got a few times also..embarassing lah.Ate lunch,popiah later and did something that make yeez angry..we kinda play a joke on her...and think back bout it..it's kinder mean leh..althought I'm not involve directly but then again it's still consider so..i mean I shouldn't have done it...regret afterwards,felt really gulity after that..somehow felt like a bad friend and very guilty..i did apologize and although after that ok already,i still feel somehow it's not alright..still guilty and regret..i mean it's done already,you can't just pretend you never do it,right?no matter how..there still a mark there right?haih...
Day 24-Sunday Got nothing much done today..planning to do my work but then really not in the mood so end up not doing anything..brother send some photos over,so went to print it out..quite a lot of them..parents went out with auntie since my aunt came...I stay at home since I prefer to..slept while watching t.v in the afternoon...relaxing the whole day.. exams coming somemore and have lots of assignment to do also..somemore got the time to relax..no mood dei!
Day 25-Monday Very tiring.. .don't know why..didn't slept well..went for my 8a.m class that ends early..decide t skip evening class since I'm kinda lazy to go and wait all the way till 4 alone...nad didn't come for class today,she got diarrhea..and I'm kinda in the holiday mood..little people in college today...but there's still ppl around....went back home staright after that..everything went well..no jam today..the traffics all greenlight..surprisingly..the roads were kinda quiet too..Chinese New Year is approaching...went home and was so tired,I fell asleep..woke up,eat,sleep again..woke up..watch tv and sleep again...kinda sleeping through the whole day..very tired.. Oh ya,rosh was pissed off and bitching all the way cause we never told him he don't need to come today while he came and waited like an idiot for us..
Day 26-Tuesday Woke up very early today since could not sleep already...suppose to go online do research but end up watching dvds..until got headache and then later have to go for afternoon class since morning class was cancelled..went early to spent time with rosh since this is our last time together..gave rosh his farewell gift and card..talk a lot..went to fish class and then later got hangout again..very little ppl in college today..we are like idiots going to class.,the college was really quiet and fish class all together got 9 people only including us...oh my gosh!..lucky fish class ends early so we had m0re time to hangout..but have to go back by 5 something already..we had like one and the half hour..we talk..and talk..and laugh over stupid things..talk about past..laugh about it...rosh,nad,shaz and me...got a few times rosh wanted to cried..eyes red and all..haih..we even ask him to leave his prints in college by writing something on the wall..vandalizing..hahaha..it was sad but fun..the whole thing..when it's time to leave,we all hug and everyone was sad... everyone kinda had a lump on the throat..haih..i hate farewells..we are not seeing him off the airport tomorrow..so this is kinda our farewell.we could have stay longer if not because we have to leave..nads have hans problem and I have to go back for my reunion dinner cause it's Chinese New Year's eve..haih..if not ..surely can go out to eat or do something...sad..did cry a bit..nad too wanted to already..and shaz called nad later and told her rosh cry like mad after we leave..*sad*..we promise to online tonight together to chat..did that..*sad*...
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天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
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::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
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::I'm still finding my way :)::
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#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
