...into muhh heart, muhh soul, a brand new miee! :)
takemyHAND*
hold me close and say three words like you used to do just three words iloveyou-
huh?!lost?; click on your right and navigate your way through!*
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Sunday, March 20, 2005
9:30 PM
Sick again...
Been sick again... vomitted last night..couldn't sleep..headache all the way,..wasn't feeling really well..*sigh*...even when I'm sick..the first person I think about is him..haih..somemore sick already still want to think bout him..make it worse..additional stress lah..make me more prone to illness..haih..what to do..depressed..went to t.s again on friday and saturday..got lots of work to do somemore want to go..hopeless...actually the reason I go is to see him..anyway someone want to see H also...what's wrong with me?hopeless...dream again..he always appear..damn man!depressing lah..is he having the same problem?I really wonder...haih..he doesn't really look ok on friday..seems like haven't had any sleep for few days..his face look a bit pale also..and he seems irritated..only get to see him for a short while on friday..he left quite early and also wasn't on the ID side for long..but he seems fine again on saturday..somemore he teach us how to play the game which I'm interested now..soul caliburII(the one where he's a pro)..big mouth yeez there again say out so loud "eh,sit nearer..nearer.."scared he can hear lah idiot..since he is sitting beside you..(i'm beside yeez)..haih..get to peek at him again..hopeless right?then later when we stand at the ID side watching..same old thing lah..he steal looks at my direction again..haih..got one time..where he purposely come stand beside me..haih.....but only for a while cause one of his friend ask him something then he turn and walk away with that friend..but when he was answering his friend that time,his finger accidentaly touch my arm..stand so near..of course will accidentaly touch lah..haih...I don't dare to even move that time..shit lah..actually I wanted to turn around to look..bit regret never do that..he left quite early also..haih..get to see him short while only..but better than nothing right?since whole week not going..maybe friday?and I don't think will be seeing him anytime soon..since school holiday over already..and he only come usually on weekends..which I don't usually go..he also don't normally come on fridays..unless holiday..haih..somemore will not be going anymore after next friday..got lots of work..dueing..exams coming..no enough time already...haih..will miss him..a lot..hopeless..hopeless lah...depressing dei!!I really can't get him off my mind...his birthday is tomorrow somemore..I really want to wish him...friends can wish also right?nothing wrong with it right?*sigh*...have to do work...going nad house to do our research poster draft tommorrow..and I haven't done my part of work yet..shit lah..never do anything the whole day..I'm really slacking dei...depressing lah..
all I can think of is you..who left me with shard of glasss from my broken heart..and with tears that never dried...I really want to hate you at times but I can't cause I still like u,or should I say love?It's so funny now I only dare to admit it..haih..I know you still do too..but why?really...why let go?why the hell you make me fall for you?damm...you are nothing but a piece of shit..yet you are something to me no matter how..fuck you!I'm really not making any sense..don't bother...the sickness must be getting to my head..I'm a hopeless case..hopeless..!
takeMEbytheHAND.
Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
takeMEsomewhereNEW.
::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
HANDinHAND.
#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
