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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
4:08 PM
i'm an idiot i know..
*sigh*.....went to ts yesterday..was really tired..not enough sleep somemore..and have to work..still wanna go..yeez was really mad at me...made her wait long..i as late..went to the bank to do some stuff..............shouldn't have go..but still iwanted to go...what was i thinking?that he will be there? haih..end up..he's there...another coincidence?so long never see d..again..he appear there when i really wanted to see him...everytime it happens..when i really wanted to see him..he will be there somehow even though he normally doesn't..that's why i say is this a gift from above?if it is..i hope it last... i don't know what to say..a lot of things happen yesterday..in a way..i don't feel like describing..well maybe a little bit...well i didn't know he was there..until yeez msg me saying he's there..i was on the way that time..and so i wanted to make sure..so i call her back..and guess who pick up the phone?yea..him..was really surprised..i recognized that voice..well was kinda happy..how long have i not listen to his voice?dei........... well so went there loh......haih..it's really not me lah..he did those small little stuff again...i'm not oversensitive sial...caught him peeking at me...well.. i did that too..i think he saw too..damn man...got once when he was at the back at me..standing really behind.. i kinda turn and look..sial mana tau he looking also..surely saw i look at him..damn man!haih...i dunno lah...got once he kinda pull his friend away and stand his friend's place......where it was like kinda beside me..his friend was luaghing at him..he was on my left side..i was standing beside the machine..so i take the iniative to talk to him loh..since before that i already talk to most of the guys i know there except him..(i dunno what got into me..wanna say hi to him but end up saying hi to almost everyone else there except him..anyway he was also playing mah when i came that time)..i didn't know what to say..so i kinda ask about his hair..what happen to his electric shock hair..he didn't reply but his hand straight away kind a went up and do his hair..his hair was gel by the way and quite nice..he didn't dare look at me..just doing his hair..and did i see his ear turn red?hmm..maybe it's my imagination.. i felt really weird and so i went over to find yeez and stand with her at the opposite side...haih..but later on..he start talking to me lah..when i change coins that time..he call and ask why did i took out my level 20 evo 4..then start talking loh...so i reply yeez wanna play for fun mah..then i walk back to yeez and he follow also..(yeez battling with my car)...when yeez battle that time..he stand beside me..and ask lots of i think stupid question..more like babbling nonsense..haih..if i were him..maybe i will ask nonsense also lah..i did what..about his hair..it's nonsense..but anyway was kinda happy..he also ask if i have any car that i don't want to play anymore,give it to him....including the evo 4..if i don't want to work anymore..and i don't really understand..and both of us like mumbling there...haih..and in the end he never finish his words...and just say nevermind lah..and look away..maybe it's my imagination again..his ear was red??!hmmm....anyway..i wasn't feeling too well myself..i was babbling nonsense too..and i feel my face feel hot...and i was a bit too happy too when talking...wtf is wrong with me?oh..and he didn't know that jean in soul calibur was me..he say now wonder sounds so familiar and he always beat that character up..dei..and then i say it's me lah!no wonder got so many loses i told him..then he was grinning/smiling and showing this "oh shit!don't know what to do" look there....hahaha..funny..so i guess i won't be seeing so many loses anymore..?or maybe more?hahahha....oh..and ppl use my evo 4 to help me battle yesterday too...and later got one rx-7 challenge..so bad go and chosoe akagi downhill wet..my car really drifty and ligh( cause of the soiler lah)..he help me play..i expected to lose one..but he won..he play really nice somemore i saw..must learn..then the next match lose loh..same map i think..but he did his very best lah..at least he never gave up in the end..haih..after that got a few times saw him giving me peeks again..dei...i did too..that's why i know..dei he surely know i looking at him..dei...got quite a lot of times i did that he was doing also..so kena caught..damn sial!and somemore yesterday he was like standing close by to me most of the time...got few times was like side by side somemore..feel happy lah of course..that's y easily kena caught..haih..haih...HAIH! haih...when i wanna play outbound with my shared dc..he left already..i really wanna show him i did improve..i'm not that bad d..haih always like that..look at me..i improve..at most of the track..i'm not that bad nemore..haih.. he change number already..haih..give yeez his number also don't give me..normal lah...embarassing mah...at least i know now..if not lost contact d then how...really scared..and yesterday yeez say he maybe got gf d..i felt a stab of pain...i mean stop doing those stuff lah to me if u got gf d..don't understand....but later found out don't have lah...thanx to yeez..really thank her for helping..i really appreciate what you have done for me...although i'm damn leceh and susah but you still help me..amd i know i always make u angry and can be really like and idiot sometimes..but thank you... haih...before i know that...i was like thinking and don't understand...i was looking like a zombie...and can u believe it..?i went home looking like a zombie...umm..unknowingly bath myself twice straight in a row...lost my appetite..took me 1 hour to finish my dinner..and i broke two plates while washing the dishes..plus flooded my own room..more like sitting there staring in the space..exactly like a zombie..can't do my work or anything..omg!!wtf is wrong with me?i mean good lah if he found someone else..but just don't understand...why is he doing those stuff to me while he got another girl d..haih...i just can't believe i was that affected...but in the end found out it's not lah.he don't have lah..haih...somehow i still think the feelings are still there...if not why are u doing the same fucking idiotic stuff i'm doing?all his idiot fucking low self esteem fault!!!fuck the low self esteem lah!!somehow i rather think it's my english lah...fuck lah..u think last time i'm good izzit?i was from a chinese school for god sake and my english was really damn fucking broken when i was still in standard 6!!u know ppl laugh at me also??!and do you know i read those books i don't understand..i just blindly reading it..that's how i slowly learn..i don't understand but i still read!!and slowly i learn and improve!and my family don't really speak english at home also!!dei..everyone have to start somewhere and everyone work hard to improve..!!..!!and that's how i got my english proficiency or whatever u wanna call it..although it's not good enough but i'm still learning and impoving..i still sux at pronounciation sometimes..the word "soup" and "soap".."mosquito"..some ppl would know what i'm talking about here..that's how bad i was last time...ok??!i'm not good lah!!i'm not even an "A" student!!i'm just an average student ok??don't think i'm smart lah.........haih.......fucK low self esteem!! don't bother..i'm just crapping above..don't know what got into me.............i'm sick..tired...missing that donkey badly again??!!..really wanted to miscall his new number...stress over my work which is fucking going to be last minute..!!!!!!!!!!!!!having a hard time stopping my fingers from dialing the number..i'm looking like an idiot picking and putting down the phone countless time............................................ FUCK EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh..rosh coming back next month 15...he fucking msg me 3 am in the morning to ask about nad...so kan cheung about nad..just because nad change her hairstyle..she cut her hair..but still blond..short and nice..still very nice..she do her hair in a way..haih funny dei she..bring that big mirror to school somemore the first few days after she cut her hair....vain sial...somemore can bring it out and look into the mirror in front o f public..and even when in the car..she stop for the traffic light the time..ppl all looking must be think what's wring with this girl..haih.we laugh somemore..she's just so funny lah..nad..nad..that's her lah..anyway a lot of ppl say she look nice with short hair also..cute and chic...and got one girl somemore say she's the most stylish one in our class..haih..boost her self esteem lah..nad there happy..so funny lah!!and then when ppl know aout her age and she got a kid somemore..all shock and say she look so young..like 20 something..nad there damn funny again..look so happy and do that kind of look..funny lah she!!it's her lah anyway..beauty comes first for her...hahahha..sometimes really we are so different and yet can be close...life is weird....she's really special lah..she's not like any of those bitches..and she also help me a lot in many ways..although sometimes i show my temper and can be really irritating sometimes..but really thanx to racoon and orso who stick by my side when i need them and help me all this while...i really appreciate our friendship..oh damn..why am i getting all emotional...dei..oh ya..forgot one thing. dunno what's wrong with roach..keep saying racoon look ugly and all....say she old lah..her beauty will fade lah..haahhaa..bet they are having an sms-war now...this roach ah..purposely wanna have a fight with racoon only...and then later want to merajuk..haih..roach roach..still the same never change...but sad..we lost our roach page..still haven't tell roach yet..and he got the cheek to call me lowest of the scum again that day!!he's the one looking like an afghan refugee!!shave and lose weight!!he refuse to do that..!see lah!!wanna say racoon somemore..!! haih...mixed feelings..............................................................feeling better for now..haih..haih........but dunno why damn miss that donkey??at least got to see him yesterday..haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......................................as i say fuck the hell out of everything!!haih..chivas anyone?hahahahhaa..........=p..wait till roach come back?hmm....that one also no 1 cheap-O!haih... dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no dadei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da dei no da!!
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I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
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::A traveller::
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::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
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#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
