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Friday, July 01, 2005
11:34 PM
No regrets..
i did something really stupid that day..well but now i know i'm glad i did it..my mind was realyl messed up that few days..one of the reason why i cannot do my work also..after seeing him on monday...and not to mention the broken plate and bathing twice..and loss of appetite and was like a zombie..=.="...i didn't know he could affected me that much..dei...it's because i knew there's still something...haih..isn't it wasted?maybe not..i dunno..haih...anyway.. i've been itching to give him a miscall to his new number since monday...he's tell yeez he's embarrassd to give me...haih..i was really thinking of giving him only a miscall..at least he got my number??!haih..for what..i was really torture by this though..should i or should i not?yes..in the end i did it..if i didn't do it..i don't think i can even finish my assignment..i gave him a miscall just before i start doing..cause i knew i wouldn't be able to do my work if i continue to do like that..was that stupid of me?friends what..can give miscall what...he call back...but i never pick up..or was that a miscall?but it's kinda long for a miscall..probably wondering who am i...it looks like a miscall though..but anyway..i didn't picked up..and i did a stupid thing...yes..i msg him..>.<"...it wasn't exactly stupid..but still..i realize i just had to msg him...what's wrong with me?i just don't want to live without regrets...i don't want later like someone and mr.h's(mr.p) case..better do what i wanna do now if not later no chance if anything happens...once again RIP..mr h...may your soul be blessed..so anyway..i did..i wasn't really expecting him to do anything or whatever..i just do whatever i wanna do..and live with one lesser regrets..but the next night.he miscall..so play miscall with him loh..probably he wanna sleep already..i was kinda happy...and then it was the same also the next day..but that happens in the evening..(i think his credit expiring soon already..RM 10 for 5 days only wat...)..and yeez say later she msg also he never reply..must be expire already..but i was really happy he miscall me before his credit expire..i was sleeping that time on the bus..=.=..too tired (without sleep dei..read last post if don't understand)...but that donkey credit really expire already..cause later that night miscall him also no reply..haih..he me,ang damn broke one lah..where got money to reload??and everytime reload 10 bucks..for 5 days??haih...someone should give him a RM 30 or more prepaid card as a present to him..why do i bother anyway..but at least now we are in a way back to talking terms and being friends..friends as in that kind who talks and well at least give a miscall once in a blue moon..at least now he will miscall me....probably don't feel that embarassed since i started it first...well..we are back to become friends..thanks to all the stupid and embarassing things i did=take the iniative to talk/keep in touch...i did it even though i felt embarassed too.. dei..see at least it pays off...but still when both of us talks to each other..still got the embarassed feeling there...we tend to talk nonsense to each other??or ask nonsense?=.="...well at least we try our best to get rid of that embarseed feeling..i really try sial..try to joke around also...well on that monday..umm..i accidentaly pushes him too hard..i think he hit his nose on the wheel..it was suppose to be a light push dei..i think yeez also got push?.cause that time some parts for my car came out and he was like turning to yes..i think it's the muffler..dei..if change already..teruk sial..so was really anxious..everyone it's like stopping him from changing..well i did apologize anyway...and that was the first time i dare to touch him after so many months...as in body contact(don't simply think ppl plz..).. it wasn't on purpose..too worry about my car..well. .at least now we are back to being friends...oh..an he got ask why i din't change my spoiler for my car,soemore say last time don't want this spoiler..haih..i wanna change back also lah..more stable if i change..not so drifty..but this spoiler also give the car more speed and acceleration cause it's lighter..but another reason i don't wanna change back it's you lah..you help me to change one mah this spoiler..i don't wanna change it..at least i have something u changed on my car..takkan u want me to tell u that?haih.....at least my car and my shared dc still got ur time records..but yeez erase his record for our dc for outbound already..>.<..only left his record for iro reverse..sooner or later yeez gonan break it..=.=..i want his record to be there..at least one also better than nothing..haih..hopeless me..but anyway i'm happy that all the things i done paid off..but even if it didn't i will still be glad that i did it..cause i know i least i won't regret later..and i have one lesser regret in life..so i will still do whatever i want to do from now on although it's stupid..dumb..embarassing or whatever..thanx mr.h..u taught me that..even though you are not here anymore..but you'll remain in our hearts..epecially someone's else heart..cause u make a difference in my life...although i'm not that close to you..but i know that you are a nice person..your going away have given me something i never would never get..taught me a valuable lesson..peace..and if can plz watch over that person..give her the strength when she needs it..remember you are not alone...cheer up.. oh..one more thing..roach came back!!!he called up on thursday night..and this time no one believe him cause he play a fool lying to ppl he came back and all last week i think..so this time padan!!no one believe he's back..hahahaha..until finally..got evidence all only believe..in a way..that idiot lie to us say coing back next month somemore!!but he never listens to us!!and shaz called just now..(he's with roach)..say roach really look teruk!!fat like hell and never shave!!omg!!shaz say cannot even recognize him anymore and roach just turn from bad to worse!!hahah..see lah..even shaz agree..shaz say he's really not presentable now..seelah!should have listen to us and lose that extra weight and shave right??!don't want to listen!wanna look like an obese afghan refugee!!and now i think he's bald also..accidentaly cut his hair or something like that..dei..fat..unshaven..bald..like a stalker sial...we say he better shave before he sees us!!if not don't see us!!wanna meet up soon..tommorow maybe..but dunno lah..nad got hans prob..i got my leg problem..i fell down today!!while walking to work..i saw a idiot branch in front of me while i was walking..i was think what can i branch do to me..and i was too lazy to walk around it..so i walk across it..mana tau my feet tripped.."tersangkut" on the branch..its was kinda big..and i fell..i was like flying dei!my bag went flying away..lucky didn't drop into the drain..phew..but my leg was like damm pain lah..couldn't move for a few minutes..just sat there..and no one to help me up..haih..i think got ppl looking also..idiot..cannot come and help me up izzit?look for what!!dun want to help then don't look!!what to laugh just go ahead..i know it's funny for you..=.=..my leg now teruk..right knee bleed..bruise a bit..left knee is the worse one..blue black until very teruk that kind..and i was thinking right knee should be more painfult than the left since scractch and bleed all..but mana tau the blue black knee is more painful..and i thinki kinda sprained it or something..internal injuries..my mom say??!=.='..left knee external only..and i have to walk with that kind of legs the whole day during work..i still went for work..lucky there got first aid kit..but each step i take is damn painful..and i can't bent my knee..it's damn pain!!imagine the pain!!but i have to..so i tahan the whole day at work..waas damn painful and i don't want my boss to worry also..so i tell her it's fine..and only a scratch..but actually damn painful..so hard to maintain my smile..i feel like screaming..so pain sial..at least sit down not that bad..but the steps really killing me..up and down..i feel like just rolling down and get it over and done with..each step..i have to bent my knee..and so many steps..agonizing man!!imagine the pain!!and whenever sit down.. not that bad..but the part is getting up..it hurts like hell..my left knee..surprisingly ,,the one that bleeds doesn't hurt that much..it's the one that is blue black..haih..how many days do i have to go with this pain?again!i'm always hurting myself!always falling down and hurt my leg!!i'm really clumsy..don't know why..until now also still that clumsy..guess i'm born like that..is that a good thing?well ppl always laught at my clumsiness..is that really funny??=.=....it's stupid..not cute..and not funny..it's stupid dei!pain..why am i always hurting myself..?from small until now..still ike that..never change..haih..seelah now..no need to go anywhere already..and the worst part is i have to force myself to walk normally in front of dad..cause he'll start massaging with his "Iron hand" if he knows..that time my leg will be goner!!but really damn pain when i have to pretend to walk normally...at least it's better than being a goner with dad's iron fist!!at least now can walk..but if dad massages..surely no need to walk for days already..i hope it's better 2morow..but mom say it's gonna be worse!!pain..really pain this time..really teruk..last time only one leg hurt not that bad..but this time both!..lucky no scratch on hand..but both palm are red..a bit pain but not too bad..it's the leg!!help anyone..plz heal my legs in an instant??anyone? p.s i'm walking like a stroke person right now....i need a tongkat..mom laugh at me..>.<..dei.. say i walk like old cacat woman..dei..=.="
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I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
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on a soul searching journey..
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