...into muhh heart, muhh soul, a brand new miee! :)
takemyHAND*
hold me close and say three words like you used to do just three words iloveyou-
huh?!lost?; click on your right and navigate your way through!*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
12:44 AM
Black hole
A part of me just died of when you left us.. A part of me that will never smile that will never be happy again.. and never be the same again.. forever..
Leave me alone..I don't want to have any social interaction at this time.. Except only the companionship of just the few.. The rest will only just irritate me.. The world is just so realistic at times.. People are just so manipulative as well.. When they want or need something from you..they'll come to you..ahhh..or should I say when they need help or when there's no other backup or whatesover they'll ask u..being the naiive me last time, of course I will always accept and agree...easily influenced and give in..only to realize that I'm being used.. That was many many years ago....though now I've learn to be smarter..firm and never let people affect my decisions..but I still fail to see the trap that is being laid in front of me again and again..I knew it and yet I still step on it..perhaps I've always been too good to always give people a second chance,too optimistic to believe people will actually changed ...and too softhearted...now, I will learn my lesson again. and this time I'll make sure it burn in my heart and I'll learn it for real. Never ever give second chances. Must always be cautious of people, as I believe personality is very hard to change, it's more or less permanent. Appearance, attitude can be changed, fake, pretend or whatever..but at the end of the day, it's stil the same old person inside. the same old personality.I'm more or less holding a deterministic view of personality ba :p once it's set it's set. hard to change. Of course I've known that the world is such a place.Only the strongest and fittest survive as so they say,the weak ones will just perish and die. It's just natural for people to step on you to get on top or reach their goal..or used you in any ways they can. Actually I believe we are in some way of another using each others, we need someone to fulfiilled our certain needs perhaps not now but in future. For example, why we need friends? To fulfilled our social needs, we are interactive beings, and friends can even help us out when we are in trouble or need it. in some way of another, if u look from the evolutionary perspective, that's one of the factor that our ancestors form relationships and networks, with friends to help and fulfilled their social needs, they are able to survive. For example, if the caveman when hunting, and left their children or wives at home and let say they are attack by some wolf or they are sick or smtg..that's when their friends step in to help..and somehow it has become one of the survival needs, traits or wadever,thus pass on this useful traits to the rest of the generation. In some way or another, we need to interact..even for nerds who stay home and face the computer the whole day..they still interact through the virtual world in some form or another. if you lock a human being up in a dark cells deprived of any interaction, that person would end up mad or well eventualy died off. This is just my hypothesis or opinion larh, it might not be true, it still need to undergo more empirical testing :p...if there's a way to test it -.- it's unethical.. wth..I'm becoming a nerd now -.-''..talking about psych research..anyway back to the main point, so yeah basically we are just using each other for somethings, we need a person for some thing that they might be able to provide or they can provide in future. It's somehow true if you really think about it. So, can't blame people if you are the weaker one who always get used. As the saying goes..the stronger always survive. So set your limits, never ever let people influence you nor bend you towards their decision. Do what you want to and you do not have to please everyone, if they are not happy, they can just fuck off.simple as that.who needs them anyway? The hard part..the softy emotional part of me always get in the ways.damn. get rid of that and it'll be much more easier.
takeMEbytheHAND.
Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
takeMEsomewhereNEW.
::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
HANDinHAND.
#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
