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Saturday, January 15, 2005
7:30 PM
Day 2
Woke up today..found that I had made a 180 degrees turn..my head was at the other end of the bed..how long have I not done it..then when I woke up..the reality hit me again..I realized what had happened yesterday..a feeling of sadness washes over me that instance..feel like crying all over again..I feel like shit..my body was kinda aching and tired..my eyes are sore too..when I look at the mirror..then I realized not only I feel like shit but look like one too..deep dark circles around my eyes... look really like zombie and I also saw two new pimple popping out...and my face was kinda pale and I look dead....in short I look like the tsunami just hit me...Then I got my things done and get ready to go to college today for that replacement class..can you believe it..at 8.30 in the morning??!I have to like wake up an hour and a half earlier..since I needed like an hour to get there..not really in the mood for a class too..but was force to go because I wanted my attendance...So I went and u know what?The lecturer just have to mention and talk bout relationship that day..so I went all moody again..before that I was fine..I was trying to act as though nothing has happen and be like normal..but the idiot lecturer just have to mention about it..actually before that nads also did ask what happen but she saw me all quiet and I really didn't sound right,so she say tell me when we go driving later with rosh...I agreed too...since college isn't actually the best place to talk bout it..Well I met an old friend in college today..a good thing too..
After class,we waited for rosh and his car!His car is like our second home..We bought something from Mcd as usual.rosh gave me his hash brown to eat,so I didn't need to buy anything..Rosh seems moody today also..so we straight away know something is not right and he must have some problem..we keep bugging him to tell us and talk bout it..We then drove up to the "jungle"(a place that kinda belong to us,we use to drive up that just to hang out,the place have lots of tree and look like a jungle that's y we call it the jungle)..rosh keep on denying but in the end he gave in to our bugging..we kinda actually know what his problem about too..actually he's kinda sad to leave his family and friends...we advice him and all..we even say it's ok to cry if he wanted too..i mean just let it out..then nad there say that " rosh..nevermind..it's ok..since this woman here will surely cry afterwards.."so then I laugh...actually we all laugh..then later we talk about something else that really make us laugh like hell..and rosh is so funny as he really believe there's a terrorist attack that day the black out happen and the terrorist came from the border of thailand and killed the customs and then bomb putrajaya and then went to sabotaged the electectric main control center or something like that.that's why there was a black out in quite a number of places..he even told his father about it..it's so funny..but later he only know he's been fooled..haha..it's so funny..both me and nad laugh like hell and rosh still doesn't get it..end up three of us laugh like mad in the car..our stomache was so pain and we couldn't breathe due to over-laughing..I laugh till tears come out from the corner of my eyes..it really damm funny..how long since I have laugh this way?it's good to be able to laugh like that..laugh till you cry..I felt much better that instance...then it was my turn to talk..rosh wanted to know what had happen since I sounded like I was under depression yesterday night while I was talking on the phone..I didn't told him what had happened..he said I sounded like I had been raped by someone..haih..rosh..rosh..so I started to talk..the windows were winded down since they wanted to smoke..it was calm also that moment..there's a light breeze blowing too..so it's quite peaceful in the jungle..I told them what happen..was quite calm at first..but end up crying lah of course..later...felt kinda better..nad then console me..rosh also of course..nad then said she also been dumped before last time and was even worse so she started talking bout her past stories about her ex's..it was kinda nice to listen to her stories..it made me feel so much better..and all of us just sat there listening to her stories..and enjoying the breeze and that moment....we had moments of silence here and there but it was a very comfortable silent moment...and nad went on talking as she was in the mood for talking and we are in the mood for listening...that moment was very nice for all of us...I felt that everything is actually alright that moment,that instance...but sadly we all had to leave early since rosh had to be at somewhere at 12.30..so we all went home after that..and can you believe it rosh that cheapo gave us 7 bucks to take the taxi..at first he said 10 bucks but then again what can you expected from a cheapo?so it went down to 7 bucks..hahaha...but it's so not rosh to give us money..hahahaa....so me and nad took the taxi..she dropped me at the lrt station and then she went home..both of us were kinda tired..she went out again last night..hahaha..we were still laughing about rosh when we are inside the taxi and we said how much we gonna miss him when he go off..nobody can be like rosh..so straight and naive in a funny kind of way..*sigh*....
I went home and after eating..I felt asleep while watching the tv..was so tired..later woke up thinking about it again..and couldn't go back to sleep..somehow have this phobia of falling back to sleep..once I lie down then I will start thinking bout it then become depressed for no reason again...actually I should be ok already after doing much thinking..but still somehow will feel sad bout it...I just need much more time..and the more I think the more I have lots of question to ask...maybe I really need to do a face to face talk..will it be better somehow?Well i dunno..but somehow I will feel better doing that....or do I just need more time...we'll see how....we'll see how..
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天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
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::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
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::Queen of lateness::
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::I'm still finding my way :)::
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#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
