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Thursday, April 21, 2005
11:59 PM
Him again...
Finally exams over...can go out already...yeah!!went to ts yesterday and today..not suppose to go today but went anyhow...yes..saw him..after so long...happy lah get to see him..yesterday..he was in ts also haih..never go to school again..although i know today is a public holiday but still the day before got school mah...always like that where can?at least also study a bit mah?don't like to study also at least study a bit better than nothing..important year leh..how to pass like that?how to get a job?a good future?haih...i really dunno..dunno why i care somemore...but at least i get to see him yesterday..his hair was gel..dress up all..but no wooly shirt....but nice also lah..i dunno lah..the miscall in the morning is it from him..what am i hoping for anyway?he's trying to avoid me...can see through his actions...when i come back from toilet and went to take my file..he see me,then straight away want to leave to go to soul calibur there..b4 that still saw him talking to his fren but once i'm there then want to leave already..every single time..i go one side..then he will try to go the other side or other place...haih...what is wrong now?actually me also...too long never see already..i dunno what to do..want to see him..but at the same time don't want..don't know what to do when see him..maybe he also..dunno lah...today also whole day like avoiding me...or ignoring me...talk to the whole world but me...i really want to talk to him..joke or play a fool or whatsoever..but u think i nvr try izzit?u treat me like that how the hell u want me to talk to u?u rather talk to yeez than me lah ok?or tell her stuff than me lah..fuck u lah!!izzit because of holiday..no more things on my mind..that's why i always think bout u?i'm damm hopeless...depressed...haih..but think about it...maybe because there's too many ppl already that's y kena ignored..he always act like that when there's a lot of people..damm idiot one lah..dunno why yesterday and today got a lot of ppl...he nvr really dress up today..just white/gray shirt and shorts..never gel hair also...but ok also..haih..y the hell i bother anyway?i dunno lah...really dunno what i want...cannot control anymore...it's really hard to control...too much already..how to supressed it?exam time i managed to do it...lucky although he keep appearing in my mind n dream..fuck lah...at least i get through it...i cannot afford to do it if i start my honors program...maybe can lah..somehow i've been doing it the whole sem and i still did my work..i still study..but........haih..feel damm sad....really need drinking now..now worse..nothing to do anymore since exams over..nothing to worry since i've already decide to change to the honors program.(that day bro call and he also encourage me to take..kinda miss him..will think bout him when i see a bro and a younger sis together so close and nice,even saw a fellow that got his "style".r..really make me miss him..)..so nothing to think bout anymore..so free..that's why now he keep invading my mind...my dreams..fuck lah..i just realise that holiday is worse..at least if still got college not that bad..got studying and work to keep me distracted..now?nothing already....missing that idiot so fast again..damm hopeless lah me...going 2morow also...hoping to at least get a glimpse of him..hopeless..damm hopeless me...
p.s.don't really have the mood now..will bitched about my exams the next time..but overall it went ok
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I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
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#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
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