...into muhh heart, muhh soul, a brand new miee! :)
takemyHAND*
hold me close and say three words like you used to do just three words iloveyou-
huh?!lost?; click on your right and navigate your way through!*
take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*
Thursday, October 30, 2008
2:28 AM
Emo
I dunno what has got into me lately..I'm just emo.. saddened really. no mood to do practically anything. no worries, I'm still alive. just feel down. depressed. and somehow can't get myself excited for halloween night too. it's been an event I've been excited for like a month ago. yet know can't get myself hyped up somehow. probably it's her memories that keep coming back. her birthday wasn't used to be like that. There would always be gift. wishes. her smile jokes.. and some laughter. and a family dinner. Now.. everything is totally different. All is left.. is her clothes.. her shoes.. her pics.. her memories.. pain.sad.pain.sad.who can take my tears away? Nobody. Nobody except you. Nobody can take your place. Ever. I can't stop thinking. why is the memories flooding back.why?everywhere I look, everything I see, all I can see is you. you are everywhere...yet you are not here. Dreams. I have. about you. Tears in my sleep. All Dried up.Nightmares or weird dreams? I can't seems to differentiate any of it anymore. Again and again I wake up through the night. Sleepless I am. I regret. I feel guilty. Why did I not done what I should have done? Why didn't I did it better? Why I did nothing? Why was I like shit? Why didn't I realize? I suck. I cannot blame anyone but myself. All promises. Are now empty promises. I feel sucky. I tried to smile. I look at the sun, I smile, but deep inside.. I cry. My heart bleeds. It hurts like shit. Droplets of red is all I see. Blinded by it. It continue to haunts me... a shadow of my past.. that will follow me throughout my entire future..
Nobody will understand. Nobody can understand. Nor do I need them to. A route of escape.. open only by the figure in black.. Its black cloak flapping among the winds.. beckons me to come closer.. Surrender totally to its seductiveness.. Mesmerized by its power.. I take a step into the darkness.... an endless nightmare..
takeMEbytheHAND.
Enigma
天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
takeMEsomewhereNEW.
::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
HANDinHAND.
#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
