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Sunday, November 09, 2008
2:59 AM
Nerdy Me: Thesis
*spoiler warning* this post is a long nerdy post, do not read if you are prone to bored-ness! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!-_- crazy...
It's 3am. I'm suppose to leave for china tomorrow. Lots of last min stuff to packed and preparation tomorrow. Yet... I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M HERE STRESSING FOR MY THESIS!!!ARGH! THE RESULT ANALYZING PART! I just realize it's not so simple. shit man!!Okie, I'm doing factor analysis for my PF16 scale, Cronbach alpha, correlation with participant's feedback, correlation with the MPQ (Manchester Personality Questionnaire). 4 things. erm, all together 200 over questions.100 participants. -.- dei..why I sendiri cari pasal. this is hell a lot of work. At first I don't get it,how do I correlate the MPQ with the PF16..MPQ have 15 factors while the PF16 is 16..I asked my supervisor..and I realize I got the wrong idea, dumb me. The number of factors doesn't matter,I was suppose to see the overall.I went and search online for more info.. how come they never taught us Pearson product moment correlation coefficient is the fucking same thing as Pearson's r =.= dammit. I don't understand why must those scientist give formula fancy names while it actually mean the same thing. Next time, if..well If I'm that good (*Hey!even if I'm not, I can dream right!)..and have a formula name after me..I'm just gonna go with the J-formula..The Jean Formula..simple,short and it explains it all. :D Anyway, back to the point, I just realize beside the correlation I might need to do a multiple regression analyses as well..that would actually further strengthen my results if I found a correlation larh..cause then I would be able to see how one scale's score can predict the others. I'm struggling a bit here with the interpretation of the tables. Understanding is not a problem, but how do I write it out in fancy words is the problem. I kinda get the R squared part, but I don't quite get the residual part..problem problem..*sigh* That is only one part of my results. Next, come with the correlation with the participant's feedback. Problematic..the sum total scores are different can I still enter my raw scores into SPSS and get the correlation..shouldn't be a problem I think but then I have 7 questions measuring one factor on the 16PF while only 1 on the feedback form. Should I take the average of the 16PF and compare with the feedback form or should I take the percentage instead..or does the total sounds more logical?damn. I dunno. This is giving me a headache. Next,cronbach alpha is not a problem. I know how to do and run it on SPSS. Just need to refresh a bit with my rusty skill. I learned that online last 2 sems ago. The last part..the factor analysis is another major headache -.- with 112 questions for that and 100 participants.....do you know it actually compare one by one each participants -.- yes..the thought of entering the raw data is already a stress. the analyzing and interpretation is gonna kill me. At this time, I often asked myself, why did I chose to do this..isn't this sendiri cari pasal!??!Others will probably chose the easy route out~.~...my god..why am I so dumb T_T just because it looks much more cooler and canggih in my thesis..and and..I itchy hand ='( sobs..now I have to bear the consequences. AND WHY THE HECK AM I A LAST MIN PERSON!!I never learned..do I?=.="... And now you must be wondering..why I don't ask my supervisor for help with all these..most of the stuff I have to figure it out myself or learned myself through my own means..that's because.......................................
OLD SCHOOL!!HE USES MANUAL CALCULATIONS!!OMGGG!!HE EVEN TEACHES THEM..!!
If i use that... think it take me one year..-_-"..or maybe months...and no, he doesn't know how to use computer to calculate the results..nevermind if dunno SPSS..but he don't even know excel..!!can't you beleive it!ANCIENT!!!i called it ANTIQUE!!!!T_T why can't I get a canggih psychometrician to teach me all these..T_T *Sigh* I have to take the hard way out..learning through tutorials and articles online...At times, I'm really lazy, can't be bothered to read those wordy lengthy guides la!!But can't deny la..I actually learn a lot from it..you know even under correlation there's plenty of different type for different level of measurement..there's tetrachoric correlation, point biserial correlation, biserial correlation, polychoric correlation, polyserial correlations, partial correlation, multiple correlation, semipartial correlation, autocorrelation bla bla..the list goes on..if you interested just googled on it la. Call me a nerd. I actually find it pretty exciting to learn it -.- yeahs, I'm a closeted nerd. used to be a obvious out in the open-nerd XD lolz!! No la, I'm still a slacker. But it's just that this is my new found interest and something that I want to pursue in..I'm pretty excited about my thesis actually and the way it's gonna turn out. I thought I was burned out, but once I start with analyzing the results and learning all the stats thingy again..I got excited -_-'.Oh god, Im a fucking nerd =.='. I actually have doubts of whether I can applied for further studies in this branch of psychology. I was afraid that I'll get bored of it and I'm just having those 3 minute fire interest kinda thing again. But now, it seems, psychometrics really sparks my interests.Up till now, it never fail to catch my attention, the more I know of it, the more I want to learn about it. My supervisor had a special class teaching item analysis just that day, though I don't need it for my thesis, I attended, partly I have to la cause I'm the commitee member of the psychometric club but another part is cause I want to learn. though manually but still..I learned something :D.I still have doubts on whether I can pursue my studies in this area..but well at least a tiny little bit lesser. I usually get bored of things easily,I have problem commiting myself long-term to something..eg) jobs. that's why I can't stay in a job too long. I'm woried about my working life -_-'. I need a interesting job. That's why I prefer part time and freelance jobs, even part time also I can't really commit myself, I get bored and slack in the job after a while.lol! OKie..okie I know..I'm going off topic again..-_-' why am i always so wordy...ish!back to the topic.. Anyways, what I don't understand is why can't people just take their time googled and search on it instead of going round asking if they don't know how to do it. For example, I spend hours reading and learning on a certain formula or whatever and then this person come along asking me can I teach her/him..:( that's like unfair.call me selfish brat or whatever. But why can't they just take the effort to do the same thing. People got through the hard way while others just want to take the easy way out. It's kinda like taking advantage of people. Well, if they pay, that's a different case all together lah. Or if it's really too complicated or can't be learned online, then different. But the point is they don't even bothered to search online in the first place!!!!
Case Scenario: A doesn't know how to do a type of analysis and went to ask around how to do it. Somehow A overheard B knows how to do it so went and asked B. B malas la and have a lot of work :p.. suggested that A to search online.
If you really want to learn how to do something, wouldn't you actually did some research or try to googled it online or what first. Well, to me, somehow rather I'll find this kind of person lazy and wanna take the easy way out la. I know it's good to teach people or help people, but depends on the circumstances, you can't always be giving, people will just take advantage of you. I've learned that the hard way :). Help is help but there's a limit to it, either way is you pay me, and I'll get the job done. If not, people will just keep coming back to you demanding more and more, there's never ending, unless you put a stop to it! WHY?because they know you are mr./miss willing..that's why! They always say they are not capable or don't know how to do and come begging for help..but in the first place did they even tried!?Yeah, they might say they have..but to me..they just haven't try harder. Why other people can do it, while you can't?Stop using the excuse I'm not talented or smart enough as the others. Haven't you heard the phrase.." Success= 1% intelligence, 99% effort" But to these people, they can't be bothered to even put in the 99% effort and they already admit they are a failure. They find it easier to used people to get their dirty job done, never once considering the other party's feeling and situation. Once is fine. Twice is still ok.. But third time..is MELAMPAU!! These are selfish people who is too egocentric and only concern about themselves and their own matters. Seriously...-_-!These people should just rot and go fuck themselves. t(-_-)t.Lazy scums of the society...a disgrace to the human race.and yes. I have zero tolerance towards these bunch of shit asshole. but because of my stupid emotions- the soft spot in my heart...I always did the opposite instead. *Sigh* that's why I always say emotions only get in the way.How many times must I learned my lesson?Hey...! I'm learning..learning..gimme some time!!! I always realize my mistake after I give in -_-''..that's bad..but at least now I know how to escape from it after that :p..not that Miss.Willing anymore I used to be ehs? Too bad for those scums then,hell to them!! Enough of cursing and swearing..fuck!4am!!!THESIS!!!!OMGG!and IM GONNA BE AWAY FOR A WEEK!!!SHITTTTTTTTTT!SUMORE THE ADDED PART LIT REVIEW OF THE MPQ NOT DONE...THEN HE WANT THE DRAFTS AND RESULTS..TWO WEEKS B4 DUE DATE ..FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!IM TOTALLY FUCKED...NOT TO MENTION I HAVE A FUCKING PRESENTATION TO PREPARE FOR ANOTHER ASSIGNMENT WHEN I COME BACK!!! IM SO FUCKED!!! NVM..SINCE THAT WAY I JUST HAVE A GOOD TIME AND ENJOY FIRST IN CHINA..ANYHOW I'LL GET FUCKED LATER AGAIN..-_-'' CIAO!!
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