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Tuesday, January 18, 2005
10:39 PM
Day 5
Ok fine..I know I was rushing through the last post..so I can just go on with today's post..well whatever..Didn't slept well again last night..although was tired..I awoke at 3 o' clock in the morning for no reason and started crying again..shit man..I'm really into depression or what?I though I should be ok already by now..but I was wrong...don't know I cried for how long..my eyes were like so tired..I fell back asleep..woke up at 6.45 a.m..I had another 8 o' clock class again today...woke up late..rushed through my morning routine and hen went to college..I wasn't my usual self today..the whole day I was moody..i was so quiet when i went for breakfast with nad,rosh and shaz...tired I guess..I didn't ate anything as I had eaten but I did eat a bit of nad's roti canai..and nad order a ice milo for me...well..after eating..we went to hangout in the jungle since we had a long break for like 5 hours..and nad brought her laptop and a few vcds..rosh too..so we went up to jungle and watch....some ppl will know what we watch,right yeez?It was boring...rosh's one..boring lah!Later nad's laptop was too hot for functioning too long already I guess so and we are done with it anyway so we decided to go someone for lunch..we couldn't decide where to go..at first rosh say go to his club to eat but then me and nad later say we want to eat the dim sum in hartamas again..so we ended up arguing where to go..but in the end agree on going to rosh's club..hehe..no need to pay mah..rosh that cheapo limited us that each of us can only order two snacks..hmpphh!but ended up giving in to us lah of course..and he say I can order anything cause I didn't ate anything just now..hahaha...I guess he saw me being moody and quiet the whole day that's why..so of course I order japanese food!at first that cheapo rosh don't let but end up I won...so I order a chicken teppayakki set..everyone ordered their stuff..shaz really had this thing for fried rice..he really like fried rice lah..he also admit..after eating and chatting for like more than one hour..it's time to go for our class so we headed back..on the way dropped shaz since he's going back as he had no class already..shaz really is a nice guy lah..a real gentleman...he really is lah..he open the door for the girls..he open the car door for nad and me..you rarely see guys do that..and not one time..it's everytime...didn't really notice it last time probably been closer now with rosh and all....so that's why..anyway we went back for that nemo fish lecturer class..rosh sit in too...only an hour class..then later we have a two-hour break till our replacement class for social..idiot..replacement class again...blame it on public holidays..so we decided to drove up to the jungle again..only three of us this time..nad n rosh wanted to buy the ice cream from mcd..and asked me but I didn't feel like eating..seems to lost my appetite so I told them no need..the were like shock..and say soemthing's really wrong with me today..they bought their ice cream and we went up to jungle to talk bout it...nad and rosh say they can see I'm not my usual self today..I was like in my own world half of the time..staring out through the space..and so quiet..and like so sad and I didn't ate much today + I didn't want my ice cream..I didn't had much appetite today..actually these few days..I didn't eat as much as I used to...I have lost some weight too..like I'm not skinny enough..underweight already somemore want to lost more weight..what to do..didn't slept well since the day we broke up..my appetite gone with it too..I used to eat like a pig..but now..they ask me to talk about it....I just kept quiet..and tears staretd flowing again..then nad say that I must really like that guy lah..and she feel like punching that guy for making me like that..nad and rosh both ask for his number too..but I didn't give of course..and rosh say he felt like going t.s to find him and beat him up...and he even ask me if I want to or not..he can ask other ppl to beat that guy up too..he got connections..they say they feel like finding that idiot and really beat him up for making me like that...but of course I say don' want lah..and for what want to beat him up..I also won't want to see him hurt right?...*sigh*..nad say I was so happy before that..was so cheerful..chirpy.happy..too happy in fact..and she even say I'm glowing that time and now suddenly like that..she say that guy really an idiot..not even 2 months want to ask for a breakup..and in the first place he asked for it first..now want to ask f0r breakup..haih..what to do right?So we talk about it...then talk bout something else too...felt better too...but still..it takes time..more time...I dunno why today every single thing reminded me of him...somehow..even got one time when rosh laugh..it sounded really like him...I really don't want to think about it..but it's hard..so sad and depressed...I really was serious..I really like him then or should I used the the word "love"?..I dunno..I really dunno..all I know is that it hurts..and is still do...I guess I just need more time to let go...I hope so..more time...
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天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
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::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
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#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
