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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
12:18 AM
Yes..him again..happy..=)..haih..HOPELESS!!
Today went to t.s again…was awoke by yeez to ask to go..was damm sleepy and no energy..anyway we went..i tie my hair up today cause my hair quite long already and is getting out of shape..i don’t want to look messy..so decided to tie it up until I get it cut..maybe next week,mom haven’t give me my hair-cut money yet,without it I can’t get my hair cut..anyway was hoping he will be there although I know the chances are not high since today is a monday and school day somemore..but surprisingly he turn up..in the afternoon..can see he just “stole out” from his house for a while only..at least he nvr skip school..well I was quite surprise myself also..i didn’t saw him coming cause I was sitting in some corner replying nad’s msg..when I went back to the ID side only I saw him..was really surprise..that he appear..was happy to see him..haih..at this time..that fat ass guy who is damm shit up ask him to battle for him..he shouldn’t help that fat ass guy lah…haih…but knowing him got free round surely want lah..so the opponent ask ah loong to battle..then later ah loong and yeez disappear after the match cause scared the fat ass guy make noise there..i wasn’t there at this time..went to the corner to reply msg again..so went I came back found both of them missing..so alone loh..with ckin.talk to her loh..and when I was looking for yeez and loong the time..went to the version 3 machine side,he also was moving around on the opposite side to version 3 machine..so kinda saw him cause I was also moving to the version 3 machine side..haih..i really got the strong urge to go over the other side so to get a better look at him..but I tried damm hard to hold it..don’t want to make it so obvious mah..but later when yeez and loong came back already..he came over and stand next to me…haih..got so many place to stand,y must he stand there..haih…but me happy also lah..how long he never did that already…and later he battle the time..i was standing beside him also…haih..i’m not even concentrating on the battle but him..but try to make it look as if I’m interesested on the battle lah..not so obvious mah..caught him peeking at me also today from the corner of my eyes lah..back to old times..haih..and when he want to go soul caliber that side..he can go the other way one,nearer and faster but purposely want to take this way where he have to pass by us…longer way somemore…is it because i’m standing this side?want to purposely walk here to see me izzit?haih….hopeless lah me…but I’m happy lah..at least I still can see some of these signs…I know..i’m damm hopeless..he’s really my mood enhancer lah..see him only..my whole face light up already..and mood damm good today after what he did today..play soul caliber also not that shit already..ID also..although he came only for a short while..maybe less than 30 mins but still it’s enough already to change my entire mood….haih..i wonder whether he like me with my hair tie up or not?haih..why do I bother..hopeless..i dunno..i really think that it’s like a miracle that he turn up today which he won’t normally do although it’s only a short while..while I was hoping so hard that he will..sometime I really think god really answer my prayer…it’s like a gift..that he turn up and I get to see the all those signs all over again…haih..i know i’m may just giving myself false hope..but still…..i was so damm depressed n sad before this…but now at least after seeing him today..better already..but as human we are always not satisfied with what with have...I know I should be satisfied already after getting to see him today,should not ask for more..but the more I see him..the more I want to see him..missing him already..hope to get to see him longer next time..and that he act like today..at least don’t totally ignore me like on last wed and thurs..haih..i know..i should be satisified to at least get the chance to see him already..but I’m also a human…hope to have a good dream tonight..damm lah..i’m damm hopeless lah…but I just realize that my mood can really depends on him..haih…what to do right if you still like people?haih….damm it lah…cannot control my feelings lah..it’s not easy after controlling it for how many months…more that 3 months already lah…haih..don’t even know how after my honors program start..hope I can control lah..or suppress it..it’s not good for my emotional health lah…I think I may become insane one day sooner or later…haih..i know lah..but I can’t help it lah….
我对你的思念比任何东西还强 可能人家会笑我傻 笑我笨 笑我蠢 对你依然那么的固执 我就是对你那么的坚持 那么的固执 因为我对你的感情依旧不变 我真的好后悔 好后悔... 没好好的珍惜你 I took you for granted... 后悔末及了.. 可是一切已太迟了 已无法再挽回了.. 太迟了呀... 你可不可再给我多一次机会 来补偿我的过错? 求求你... 只要一次.. 那么一次.. 我不会再犯同样的错.. 让我再有一次机会好好的珍惜你,好吗? 太迟了... 真的已太迟了... 不可能再有那么一次机会了.. 真的就不能赐我那么一次机会重新来过吗? 好后悔.. 真的好后悔....
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天子心
I was born under the smallest astrological sign 24 yrs ago
used to be a psychology student
but now a self-proclaimed full time slacker
on a soul searching journey..
but end up finding my soulmate instead, love being with YOU :)
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::A dreamer::
::An adventurer::
::A traveller::
::A slacker::
::A party gal,once in a blue moon::
::A game freak::
::Slacker workaholic::
::Anime & manga enthusiast::
::Queen of lateness::
::Night owl::
::Psychometric nerd::
::I'm still finding my way :)::
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#1Want ::Get an iphone::
#2Want ::Nintendo Wii::
#3Want ::Go to Japan::
#4Want ::Learn skiing::
#5Want ::Complete my bungy jump attempt::
#6Want ::Get Scuba Diving license::
#7Want ::Invest in an underwater camera::
#8Want ::Get solo skydiving license::
#9Want ::Climb a mountain::
#10Want ::Gain my doctorate::
#1Wish ::Travel/Backpack around the world::
#2Wish ::Pursue my dream & achieve the highest::
#3Wish ::Master as many languages in this world as possible ::
#4Wish ::Study all about the myths of Egypt,Rome and Greek culture::
#5Wish ::Wanna be a millionaire $_$ *quite impossible*::
#6Wish ::To volunteer frontline @ africa or some war-torn country::
